Step 10.  Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

Went to a f2f meeting this weekend and I was introduced to step 10.  Who knew this was the message I needed to hear.  I've been reacting to (exploding at) other people's negativity in general or personal criticism directed at me for awhile now.  I didn't realize I was trying to prove myself so fiercely to others, and that I didn't have to defend myself to others every single time someone else is having a bad day. 

I was so distressed about that photo album thing so I called my mother to get some insight, vent, and see my part in things.  I told her I had appologized but I was stressed because I didn't know how things would turn out and actually assumed the worst.  And she said that is between you and God.  I don't know why that just hit home for me right at that moment.  That comment just woke me and calmed me right down.  I don't have to keep at people to get a response or confirmation that we are o.k. with one another.  Who knew that?...I didn't.  I can only do my part and Let Go And Let God.  How often I have heard that and didn't fully get the meaning...until now. 

A friend let me borrow Paths to Recovery and the Step Four Inventory Bluepint for Progress.  I didn't understand how I was supposed to work the program until she gave me these 2 books to begin the process.  I had just been sporadically reading Hope for Today and coming to this site hoping that would be enough.  Guess what you have to do the work and use the tools.  I have heard that one before but this time I understand where to begin.  It's funny how we get in our own way of recovery. 

Thanks for Listening-  nh girl