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I haven't felt the way I feel in a very long time. I am feeling very anxious, scared, and insecure with my finanacial picture. I lost my job in May, ex AH stopped paying child support a month ago & now we are concerned that my husband my loose his job very soon. I am trying not to project. I am trying to continue doing the legwork in keeping things going. I am trying not to freak out. I am trying to have faith that my HP will take care of things so long as I let him.
Ok so Im trying & trying - now what? Today I have had a lot of time to think about a few things and have realized that what I am trying to do is control things yet again. Fear is one of my major triggers for attempting to control the outcomes in my life. Despite being in this program for as long as I have been - I slip. I am human and I am not perfect.
Maybe I should stop trying so much and turn it all over to my HP - let go & let god. Accept my powerlessness and just continue to do the legwork that I need to do & nothing more.
Guess I just needed to put it out in writing for myself to see the reminders for myself.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
yes your doing this right u came here serenity prayer works .. God grant me the serenity * let me calm down and think clearly * to accept the things I cannot change * other people* The courage to change the things I can *contact social services about ex husb child payments * and then let go The wisdom to know the difference . whats my part if any in the problem ? and remember Worry is like a rocking chair , it gives you somthing to do but get s you no where .HA
"Guess I just needed to put it out in writing for myself to see the reminders for myself."
LOL...I always love to see one of our family put it down on paper and arrive at the solution...such proof that "it works when you work it". I remember the early program Nazis' as they were called then...tough and hard as nails...who use to say "trying is lying" and that use to make me cringe but not run. Trying practice and practice results in taking off the training wheels. Watching you arrive at the solution here leads me to believe you haven't had training wheels attached for a long time. Thanks.
For me I even get grateful for the new hard times because they are opportunities to check out my faith, my assets and my positive mental and spiritual attitudes.
You're doing the right thing when what you're doing helps another member grow.
serenity prayer works .. 