I don't think driving home into the sun after having my eyes dialated has anything
to do with trust and faith but them maybe just in light of God watches over drunks
and fools.  I am still a work in progress in the stubborness area and the oppositional
defiant arena.   I remember my sponsor saying to me...We know you can do it but
should you?  I shouldn't have and did anyway.  Not sane; not sober put HP to work
not guiding me but keeping everyone else away from me.  i remember reading a
psycological profile for alcoholism which said that the alcoholic personality is partly
one of a risk taker.   Gotta hammer out another 7th step.  Any suggestions and
feedback I will humbly listen to.

On the other hand Mahalo for the thoughts and prayers because I again am reminded
what the program and the fellowship is about.  You send your HPs to attend and that
is what happened.  I learn all over again what those closing words in the promise at
the end of our meetings mean.  "If you keep and open mind, you will find help." 
When I take an attitude that i don't know and others will help me understand it allows
others to be there for me.  I went in thinking that what needed to be done was fixing
my right eye and that my left eye was a goner.  I'm given the feedback that my right
eye is good and normal for my age and condition (slightly hazy) and that my left eye
is operable!!  Gratefully humbling.  I'm amaze what happens when I refuse to cave
into 1st opinions and allow time, patience and others experiences teach me what the
real possibilities might be.   It's operable and I have an appointment for further work?

Trust God is the summary of the first three steps and trust the fellowship is the
summary of surrender for me.  I'm humbled...and grateful and excited.

I also had the grace of remeeting an old friend and associate from the Alternatives
to Violence case work days.  I hugged her like an old lost teddy bear LOL what a
beauty and she brought me up to speed on what transpired after I left and how
things were going on for her since and I brought her up to speed also and we just
speeded each other along waiting for our appointments.

I have no disappointments or complaints about the afternoon...isn't that great!!  I'm
looking forward to the next appointment and I will still interview the doctor before
the proceedure about the downsides if any because it is during those downsides that
I need higher power.   The last surgery I went thru my surgeon said to me "There are
things happening here that are beyond my knowledge and experience."  He and the
anesthesiologist had participated (only) in a miracle and came to acknowledge it.  I
don't consider myself that special that these should happen so often but then I don't
have God's will do I?  I like to think that what is working in my favor is your prayers
and thoughts...so I won't change that thought.  I just say Mahalo and continue to
do the same for you and others.

(((((hugs)))))