I haven't had such a good day in a long time.  Well really this week has been quite good, but today seems great.  I had a good day yesterday, I put myself first and did not worry so much about HIM.  I had lunch with a good friend.  I concentrated on work.  I was on this board.  I got home and he was sober!  I mean, I know when he isn't, believe me.  I know.  And he was sober and happy and very communicative and loving.  We ate dinner and talked about regular every day stuff.  Then we went and picked out a couple of movies at the redbox and I even made sure to get one for me, and we watched my movie last night (a chick flic).  I woke up today feeling really good.  Not that I am expecting anything out of him today, but I feel less worried today than usual.  I feel a bit freer.  Does that make sense?  And I haven't been able to get to a f2f meeting in a while, but coming here and reading the literature and doing a lot of journaling has helped.  You guys are amazing to me!  Thanks for all your shares.  They do help and I do read them all even if I can't respond :)  Thats a good thing too, as I used to try to respond to everyone and now I know that I cannot and should not :)  I am growing!  YEAH ME!