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I am so tired. The last few days have been a real reminder of the sickness in my AH and myself. I am emotionally hung over. Yuck. I did recognize my part in it right away, well it was a little to late because the ball was rolling. The question was "Are you at the bar?" Silly me, I know better. It became a big to do about how hard he works and on and on. I smoozed it over after I yelled at him to maybe take out the f__ trash once in a while. Good one huh?
I all of suddenly was in observer mode, detached, and thought what am I doing. So I sucked it up and let him be right. He was pretty tipsy and stoned so I wasn't going to argue. It took a few minutes for him to calm down. He did and then he went to bed and I had a nice evening.
It just wears me out. I called on some income based housing today. Just doing some footwork, no decisions yet.I am not even mad, just so sad that addictions destroy the goodness. I have cried for too long. I have to make some changes. I am starting Nursing school soon and won't have a car. I guess I have to trust my HP on that one.
Enough rambling. I did get to an alanon meeting today. I am leaving town for four days. I get to see my son, daughter, and friends. Just what I need some family/friend therapy.
Miss Carol thank you for your post. Sounds like some time away with family and friends will do you good. Its good to get out of the situation for a while as it clears our head also. We can forget about "fun" in our lives...go have a good time :)
