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got back to my f2f meeting last night. It is like everything else...once you stop doing something it is hard to get back to it. I was fighting with myself. I didn't want to go. I wanted an easier, softer way. I wanted to go to bed , sleep and forget about life for awhile. I know I said about 3 times that I wasn't going and then I was. I put some makeup on and then said "I'm afraid there is going to be a storm while I am out so I'm not going"....then I was going again and I'm glad I did. My f2f is fairly large and most of the Aloners there are parents which is what I need.
I am still struggling with my son getting married. I know it is a big mistake and I fell off the wagon so to speak, and told them too. I will go because I think it is the right thing for me to do. I will give them my blessing but I know it is wrong. He is still very active and she seems to be very codependant. She is very needy. I don't know what it is that she could need from him. He has absolutely nothing to give her except grief. I wish they would call it off but they said no. She is going into this with her eyes wide open. I told her she needs to think long and hard about this. I mentioned Alanon to her. She knows I go. Maybe, at least, she will give that a try.
What more can I do but try to take care of myself. I was happy with myself for going to my meeting. I bought the book Survival to Recovery. They were reading out of it last night and I thought it sounded like something I would like.
I just asked my HP to help them do the right thing and to take care of them.
You go girl! Sometimes I can be my own worse enemy. I can talk myself out of almost anything (except chocolate). When I need a meeting the most, that's when I don't want to go. Something always kicks me in the right direction (usually it's Christy! ) and I get my act in gear and go. I'm always glad I do. The beauty of recovery is that we can restart it anytime we want to. I have slipped so many times in recovery that it's a good thing I have lots of padding back there!
Thanks for being such a great example of what we can do. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
The awareness of the slip is half the battle - you did so good to see it. Don't be too hard on yourself, I think we all slip. I know I do. All we can do is keep working our steps, make amends if needed and ask HP to help us not slip again.
I know I said about 3 times that I wasn't going and then I was. I put some makeup on and then said "I'm afraid there is going to be a storm while I am out so I'm not going"....then I was going again and I'm glad I did. My f2f is fairly large and most of the Aloners there are parents which is what I need.
) and I get my act in gear and go. I'm always glad I do. The beauty of recovery is that we can restart it anytime we want to. I have slipped so many times in recovery that it's a good thing I have lots of padding back there! 
