The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I haven't even looked at a single post here, I don't really know what this site is like. I just hope I can share stuff here that I've never told anyone and that maybe someone will understand. I don't fucken know.....
So voila. I'm in my early 30s, I'm an ex opiate addict. I met a younger man who saved me from the horrible world I spent my 20s in - of perverts and dealers and opiates. But somehow I've managed over the last 5 years to replace opiate with alcohol. I lov and respect him more than I could ever have imagined I would in my life.
I come from a long line of drinkers. I hold it together during the day, I have a good job, loads of friends, but I moved 100,00 miles away from home 10 years ago and no one really knows my secret, that I drink everyday. My friends and colleagues think I never drink.....
But then every night I'm off my face to be honest. to the point that for example I signed up to this site and 5 minutes later coudn't remember my stupid password. I had to sign up again... I usually hold it together but my man has been away for 3 weeks and I've been drunk every night, mostly alone but a few times with random strangers.... I just suppose I can't stand my own company.... Everynight I say I don't want to anymore but as soon as I'm home from work I can't stop myself.
Anyway. I don't what else to say....... anyone want to say something to me?
I'm also a really huge fan of French rap. random but there you go.......
It sounds as if you would find help and understanding at an AA Meeting. The telephone number should be found in your local white page telephone directory. MIP also has an AA site that you can visit and post to
There is help and hope ao please reach out to these areas.
You are not alone and life can grow and be enriched.
