Hi all,
I have had a chat with my ExABF
it was quite nice but hard.  He has gone back to Aa and has gotten himself somewhere to live.  I told him I could not have a relationship with him anymore that  cared for him but I needed to focus on my recovery, life and kids.  He said that he was sorry for all the pain , that he would not let his disease kill this relationship and that he was going to go and get well.  That he hoped one day he could return as the amn that I deserve.  He said he was not going to let me go , he wants no one else and wants me to be his wife.  I told him I was living in the day.  That I could not be hurt anymore and I could not promise that i would give it another go once I have heeled.  He aked if I would let him know if I start a new relationship.  I explained I just want to focus on me, my recovery and childrn. 
We agreed no contact for a while. He has rung a few times and I have ignored them except one this morning.  I told him I needed to focus on me.  he said he neede to here my voice that he was doing what he needed to do but wanted to talk to me.

I have been thinking about this all day.  I am feeling good I am talking to my Hp and feel I can be alone for the first time in my life.  I do not know what Hp has planned for either of us but I do know I need to focus on me.  If he rings again I am goig to set a boundary.  Say I will keep in contact very minimal say one call amonth.  But I need to focus on me.

Any Esh would be appreciated.  Am I giving him faulse hope? Am I holding on to hope myself? In my ideal world he would be strong on his own and I would be strong in my recovery I know this will take a long time, I also know either one of us may not make it.  But to toally say goodbye forever seems hard.  I know I can not have a relationship intimate but is a very casual friendship to dangerous.  Is it better to have no contact and just hand it all over to Hp.  Suggestions esh might help not looking for advice I know only I can decide.

thanks