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I thought I would share my new awareness with you guys.
I read this reading the other night in Hope For Today page 17 as I become overwhelmed with my struggle to detach from family with it being easter weekend. To give a little bit of insight I was feeling lonely due to not spending time with my nephews and enjoying the fun they bring at easter time. I miss it though not my family dysfunction.
Anyway through reading this as it described letting go as a likeness to flowers blossoming slowly. It went on the talk about how some flowers have trouble opening up and unfolding. For me this described my battle with unfolding and a lot of it is to do with fear/trust. I have a great ability of talking about outside flourishing and not telling my story at meetings more what I have learned and how I have changed through the program.
I have unfolded some pain with my sponsor as this I feel comfortable with. What this reading helped me with is that it is okay and it will happen in time when my higher power feels I'm ready.
What I will work on for now is giving a bit of service back to al-anon in simple gestures like group sharing/chairing, printing out convention leaflets and handing them round at meetings & making the tea.
This part of the reading confirms that I am an individual flaws and all which makes me unique and a part of al-anon fellowship from whom newcomers/members and family will learn from the more I share my EXPERIENCE,STRENGTH and HOPE.
In any spray of flowers , all appeal to me - each one as an individual bloom, and all of them together as a beautiful symphony of color and fragrance. The remind me to relinquish false reserve and to allow my own partiular bloom to develop to its brightest and most fragrant so that I can joyfully claim my righful place in the bouquet of people around me.
The funny thing is I have loads of flowers blooming slowly in my new home. I love watching the dafodills and amaryllis unfold. This was a the main experience that linked to this reading being so powerful as it's for me like I have been watching my process of growing through my eyes. This is beautiful and I will remember now how beautiful my al-anon friends have said it is to watch me grow.)))))))))))))
Thank you
cheryl
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Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.
A great reminder of wht my sponser told me many years go. Alanon is a program of SELF Acceptance not self Improvement and that we grow slowly with progress not perfection.
Aloha Cheryl and Mahalo for that share. I now know that another member of this program has a key to my spirit. From my Avatar a person can guess that flowers are special metaphors for me and your thoughts have made it more special. (((((hugs)))))
I can def relate to this -- as recently Ive noticed I have grown to a place of trust with myself... following through on my boundaries, reminding me to detach from others at every turn - allowing them their dignity to live their lives - as I am living out the consequences of the choices I make. Growing in self discovery, self trust (as I dont compromise myself anymore) feels like a wonderful, secure and safe feeling. It is priceless and I know I am honoring me and my HP.
So, keep on blooming! I find that service work helps me to remember where Ive been and it is very humbling and rewarding. Keep working it! kcb You are just where u need to be and -yes- all thing happen in God's/HP's timing.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
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