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Another lonely night thinking where is he. My A just came home awhile ago and of course...drunk. ..As he passed out on the bed, I cried out to my God "Plese take him or me, I can't take this anymore." I must have cried out for 1/2 hour repeating the same words to God..." Please, him or me,,,I can't take it anymore. You said if I ask you anything in your name, you would do it. Please take him, cure him, or take me.
Aloha Weggie...I prayed that same prayer and my Higher Power chose me giving me peace of mind and serenity. I stayed in Al-Anon she got sober. Some times the answer comes when we're ready and can understand that it doesn't often come as we perceive it should. I wanted to die and got my life back. If you're not attending Al-Anon face to face meetings let me suggest that you look up the hot line number in the white pages of your local phone book and call for meeting times and locations and then go to the first one you can get to. I really does get much better; often times beyond our wildest dreams. (((((hugs)))))
-- Edited by Jerry F on Saturday 27th of March 2010 09:57:58 PM
(((weggie ))) i am in the exact position as you,i too have been married 40 yrs,sometimes this dam illness just gets too much to bear...i still manage to be shocked at the deciet and the lies,he will go to get what he wants. yes i have prayed for god to end this craziness one way or another i keep trying to work this program,little steps,sometimes its one step forward and tons back lots of love ollie xxx
I remember it so well. Now I look back and I realize that I had always prayed for an outcome, I had always prayed for MY WILL to be done. I eventually realized that HP had something wonderful planned for me. The pain had served a perfect purpose.... it brought me to my HP. I had nowhere else to go. I had no choice but to surrender.
The program saved my life and my sanity. I hope you allow yourself to receive this gift too. Meetings, meetings, and more meetings. Didn't take long before I felt much better.
HP has something wonderful planned for you ((weggie)) You can trust this.
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
