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I AM STILL SEARCHING FOR SERENITY & PEACE OF MIND! I STILL; THANKS TO MY HIGHER POWER, HAVE SOME PIECE OF MY MIND!
I GUESS I WILL ALWAYS BE SEARCHING; FOR SOMETHING! I HAVE NOT "ARRIVED'' YET & I NEVER WILL. SOMETIMES I AM ON A CONSTANT SEARCH FOR MEANING IN MY LIFE: LIKE WHAT IS MY PURPOSE, CALLING, ETC. I FEEL LIKE I AM JUST SPINNING MY WHEELS & GETTING NOWHERE. BUT SOONER OR LATER I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE THAT I AM USEFUL & DEFINITELY HAVE A PLACE IN THIS WORLD. IF NOT AS A PARENT OR A LEADER OR JUST A REALLY GOOD FOLLOWER. I HOPE I AM GETTING SOMEWHERE WITH THIS. NOT JUST RAMBLING BUT REALLY MAKING SENSE.
I REALLY HOPE I AM NOT ON THE 'PITY POT'" TODAY. I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A REALLY GOOD PLACE LATELY. I GUESS I NEED TO FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE. MAYBE MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST OR MAYBE JUST BE DARN GRATEFUL.
I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED & MOST OF WHAT I WANT SO WHAT DO I HAVE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT ; ALMOST NOTHING.
BACK TO SERENITY: I AM FEELING A LITTLE MORE SINCE I STARTED THIS! I GUESS THIS CAN BE CATHARTIC FOR ME. I SEE THE SUN COMING OUT & I FEEL WARMTH--INSIDE & OUT!
peace of mind comes when you finally accept that you did the best you could with the resources you had. peace of mind comes when you hand over to your HP. peace of mind comes when something nice happens unexpectedly and you realise you are valued. peace of mind comes when you learn to love yourself again. peace of mind is a state of mind that only you have control over. count your blessings not your demons. (((((hugs)))))) gilly
I took a seminar this past weekend and the entire premise was creating a life of possibilities. It was incredibly empowering. One of the premises of it was that we have the power of choice in our lives. We don't need to wait for "Someday" for our lives to begin. This really hit home for me, because it's always someday - when I get married, when I find x, when I make y amount of money... I keep living my life in the future - a positive and negative one and I am not able to remain in today.
I do believe that we have the power to change our lives. You're not alone and thank you for sharing.
Someone posted on this board a while back that their serenity level was directly proportional to the amount of acceptance they had. This really struck a chord in me and came to mind with your share.
I do know the purpose of our life is our own personal happiness. That is foremost. No matter what it takes to get there, that is the goal. Sometimes we run out of gratitude, its easy to do for we are only human. How about having gratitude for that big ole sun that shines on us everyday.?
Life is surely not without its problems, even without an A in our life. Life's not made that way. Its our reactions to it. I do believe that the issues that come along with the A are sometimes overwhelming. Thats our own personal decision if we agree to live with that. It is a difficult path to choose, if we choose to be with the A.
One thing we have to concentrate on is us and our recovery and what it would take to make us happy. We must stay strong, courageous and wise. I wish you all three. Bettina
