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I spent the day yesterday cleaning out my computer room. I shredded years worth of financial documents, and cleaned out cabinets full of not-my-stuff. Much belonging to my exAH, I just piled it up and now need a big box! Considered tossing/shredding the nonessentials, but only hung onto that thought for a moment. It's his stuff and I need to put it where it belongs! Ahhh....
I am thinking I should have purchased an industrial shredder, but believe that even if I burn up the motor by the end of the weekend, it will be $64 well spent. It feels sooooo good!
I also sold my car this week (with no transmission) and did the entire transaction/negotiation myself. Pretty cool. Now I need to take the leap of faith in finding another car, my very own. Scary....
I see these two HUGE events as the intial stages of me finally letting go of my marriage. It's been three years. I've had the documents for finalizing the divorce since Dec. 1, and I have just felt paralyzed in dealing with them. I was hoping to get them done by Martin Luther King Day, as it symbolizes peace and freedom, but just couldn't do it. Trying to decide if aiming for Valentines Day is twisted or not :-/ I know, just gotta get it done. It can become its own holiday.
Recovery... such a process.
Blessings,
Lou
-- Edited by Loupiness on Sunday 24th of January 2010 02:14:27 PM
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Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
Hi Loupiness, I too have been through the pain of a divorce and come through the other side you sound like you are healing and happy with your life today. Well Done I hear such strength in your post. I love it when I feel strong and achieve things that seemed scary well done again
You sound in a good place and I see so much healing in you that I do not see the Loupie I first met here.
My divorce was 14years ago now and it has taken some time to get through it and out the other side. And sometimes it took me by surprise when I least expected to feel pain or hurt or woundedness, but doing it for me and deciding what was mine to deal with and what was not; however the best thing was finding myself and getting some security and life back was huge and as a friend of mine said,
."........You can open the door and let whoever you want in, whenever you want or you can chose to leave the door shut...this is your life now, you are in control of it and it will need you to adjust to that fact. Sometimes you will want to do some clearing out and other times you will not feel it is your place to do that. FEEL in your heart what you want to do and how and when you want to do it. Your life is your own now.................".
Well, you seem to be taking control back and stepping out. Good for you.
Lots of love, Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
