The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Realising the power behind the programme has been a mission of mine for so many years and it would seem that the power is there for the taking only if one really does dedicate oneself whole-heartedly.
Many times I have thought that I understood the programme and how to work it only to be shown that I was being selective either in the way I was working the programme or the way I was interpreting the programme.
Wisdom is the key to unlocking that power. The wisdom to take self out of the equation and rely TOTALLY on one's higher power.
Correctly centred means NO WOBBLE, NO BACKTRACKING and NO TWEAKING things so that they are comfortable ALL of the time. We NEED discomfort in our programme in order to realise that WE need to keep on working, and changing ourselves, or perceptions, our inadequacies and that we are NOT the ones who can put ALL THINGS RIGHT all of the time, but that we too have things wrong that need correction and that we took can afford to sit back in comfort and expect the world to change around us and the people in it to change JUST for our benefit or because WE do not agree or like what THEY ARE. (Ever thought, they might not like what we are either but they cannot change us or expect us to change JUST because they say so.)
So, finally taking myself out of the driving seat and TRULY handing over the reigns to my higher power, here I am finding myself being corrected so that I can view the world as it is, view each situation as it is, accept the world (and all who are in it) as they ARE - and not NEED to try to change THEM but instead to accept that it is my RESPONSE to them that needs changing and therefore in accepting them as they are I CHANGE.
I CHANGE FOR THE BETTER TOO, and as I begin to have a correct image, a correct understanding, a correct analysis before me I find the correct response, the correct action, the correct path to tread and consequently walk forward in faith and confidence that I will make it out of the mire, the mess, the stress, the strain, the pain, the panic, the fear whatever and find a joy, a release, a wonder, a new life and a new me that I truly like for being confident to acknowledge that I am NOT always blameless or right.
All of this has really helped me over the last few years as I have been here in this family and as I have listened, read, cried, laughed, shared, experienced and loved you all for and with and through.
So, I encourage you to have to courage to really LOOK at your part in the situations that you find yourselves in and have the courage to acknowledge that in that weakness of being flawed you WILL GROW STRONG and HEALTHY and change the situation for the better.
When one can do this, it is then that the power of this programme begins to show itself in fullness.
It is hard, it is a struggle, however the rewards are so awesome that I can honestly say I would do it all again just to get to this place NOW.
Thank you family for your part in my recovery to date. xxx
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Thank you so much for your words...it is encouraging to know that with some work I can get to where you are and that there is no end to progress all of us can experience!
