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i have now finished setting up home in my little caravan and have finally run out of things to do to keep me occupied. i managed to get out for a while and go see a friend of mine last night which was nice. i still cant sleep though. thoughts circling my mind....could i have done more, did i help him enough, i have failed him...that kinda thing. i hope this passes soon as it is playing havoc with my ibs....been really ill today and unable to go out cos i needed to be near the loo....at least i have my dog for company....think i would go mad if i was totally alone with this. how on earth do people cope who have noone to back them up?
Aloha Lucy...I was told early on not to attempt my recovery by myself as I would be a crazy person trying to keep a crazy person sane. LOL been there and done that soooo the solution for me was to work at finding people and calling them who would help me to recover without any excuses. That was hard and not impossible. Anything new starts off slowly and is unusual. It's new stuff and change and Lord knows how much I hate change!!. I also learned thru a sponsor how to restate my beliefs about what I couldn't do...He taught me to say "I won't" rather than I can't and that made a huge change on how I looked at my picture.
Keep coming back...cause this works if you work it. ((((hugs))))
thanks jerry....i was really down earlier when i posted but i have picked up again now and am feeling much more positive about MY future. as the mother of 5 children i have spent my entire adult life caring for others in one way shape or form. i am now learning that i need to care for myself too which is what i am trying to do. a therapist friend of mine who specialises in drink and drug addiction is coming to see me. he knows us as a couple very well and has witnessed first hand the decline in my hubby so i think that will be a great source of support for me. and i now have this place to visit so life is looking up!
The night magnifies our situation and what our A's maybe doing.
I take a prescription for sleep my doctor gave me, and I have to keep my TV on all night, for some reason that helps me. I try to read something good before I go to bed or watch something on TV that makes me smile or takes me to a better place.
We just have to work on coping mechanisms that help us.
Lucy go check out afgwso.org and see if you can locate face to face meetings in your area. There is a world wide fellowship on hand to help you recovery. There is also a ton of literature about alcoholism and the disease of addiction just waiting to be read.
dont think am ready for face to face. am happy enough chatting under the guise of my dog's name and am very careful not to name AH. think need time to get my head round things. thanks anyway
