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I need to stop snooping. Is doing me no good at all. This is my addiction, snooping into my exAH (wow that feels so strange to say...ex) facebook, emails, phones..you name it.. I know I have to stop cause everytime I find more and more hurtful things, but it's like a compulsion. I just miss him so much I feel like this way I have some control still. Oh God, he relapsed and now I relapsed HARD. I'm back into my old obsessions and I hate it.
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Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable.
You Called it out, Own and Move on... We all find ourselves back sliding from time to time, because we are human... Had one myself the other day, it is so easy to slip into old habits for me because welp... I have been doing them for 35 years, so I can't expect to Quit them over night...
You are seeing it now you just have to turn it around... For me... Every time the Impulses take over I first remember STOP... Once I stop myself, I then ask "Who Important is It?" Is it worth what I will feel when its over? .... Which then of course leads to THINK...
This program allows us to Start Over, at any point in our recovery, we have that choice... For me Sometimes it is a Daily thing, sometimes I make it a couple days, but I slip just as well as anyone else... WE ARE HUMAN...
Be Gentle on yourself and keep up your work in your program, you will feel HP take you were you need to go... Remember we are all here... For a Lot Of the Same reasons... So Hang in there, and KEEP COMING BACK....
wow - its kinda crazy that we all do this! I actually never accepted the friend request from by BF - its been an ongoing joke with us for the whole time we have been dating (1 year). But that was because I knew that I would question and wonder who else was on his list. I never rejected his request - so its still on my page. We aren't broken up yet - I've just kept my distance this week. But today I looked at his FB message and he has a new picture up - one that he took when we were on vacation recently - but with a "busty" chick bartender that he likes to visit. It is all I can do today to not text him with a snarky "so I see you have a new pic on FB"....
