The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It's when I start doing passive aggressive things like I did tonight ... when my husband offered to help me with the baby so I could work a little, I said no ... and then I made a mean face at him when he said he was going to go work out. I'm really not even sure why ... I don't mind if he works out! Maybe I had some expectations about the way the evening would go, I'm not sure. But I was angry the whole time he was gone because the baby wouldn't let me work.
When I stop to think about it, and as I'm typing this, I'm thinking - what kind of sense does it even make that I would be annoyed??? He offered to help me and I turned him down!! I had my chance!! It's not fair to get mad at him for not helping when he offered and I declined. UGGGGH - sometimes I just don't get me.
Okay, that's my answer. When I get like THIS, I need a meeting. LOL :)
For me, if i wait for fear and worry to set in, it's too late. I need meetings to help me stay spiritually fit so that whatever happens, I can handle it with grace.
I once heard this: "If you think you need a meeting, get to a meeting.... If you think you DON'T need a meeting, RUN!!!" hehe
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Meetings are a regular part of my week Wed and Sat for Al-Anon and then there's my other program. I go often because I forget and get complacent alot. Sorry to say that I still get tripped up easily and meetings and literature and alot of contact with the family inbetween is very good for me. I love my "other" friends and family and they are gifts for me and my spouse however the people of real value are those who have walked in our shoes and know us inside and out. Al-Anon in Hilo is a close knit group and all of recovery is close also. ((((hugs))))
I've made it a regular part of my life. I always look forward to my Monday and Tuesday night meeting. It was unusually cold for Alabama last night, in the teens when I left for my meeting. We didn't have the usual number of members attend because of the weather, but we had two newcomers who walked through the door for the first time. It reminded me that I go to my meetings for me first, but for others second to hopefully be able to give them some ES&H that they might need, just as I did the first time I walked through the doors of Al-Anon over three years ago.
Giving back is a big part of this program. Last night was just another reminder.
I'm pretty new here and I look forward to the online meetings. I make it to 4 or 5 a week. Maybe after I've been here a little longer I won't feel the ¨need¨ so strongly but I'll still go to meetings because I always learn something and feel better afterwards.
Thanks to this thread for giving me the kick in the behind that I needed..... I attended my first face to face meeting tonight!
And it was wonderful... so welcoming..... what on earth was I so afraid of?
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Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could... Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson
