The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I´m feeling like crap today. Even thouh my husband kicked me out and only calls me to yell at me, I miss my friend. I miss when he was sober we would go to the movies or to eat or just stayed home and lounge. I feel I´ve been betrayed by friends and I feel my life is so out of control right now. Honestly God has been good to me and everything money wise has gone smoothly but I just feel I cant handle any more pain. I went to pick up my stuff and he was drunk and high an had the most disgusting whore there. That day I asked God to please let me fall in love with him, right know I only wanna love God cause he´s the only one that won´t let me down. And if me and A can ever work things out I want it to be a new kinda love. Not this sick relationship we have. I don´t know how to go on anymore with this pain and I know I have to.
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Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable.
I am sending a hug your way! You are not alone! You have God with you always (I'm probably not supposed to say that here ) You are among friends here and people who understand the hell that you are going through. Just because you haven't had financial struggles doesn't mean that you haven't felt the pain of alcoholism. Keep posting. Call an Al Anon friend on your phone list. Know that you are loved! Praying for you.
You are not alone. My boyfriend broke up with me on new years eve and I have been devastated. He is clean and sober. He told me that it just wasn't working between us, that he needed to focus on his recovery. I was completely crushed. I didn't see it coming. I know you FEEL alone, but i am going through something similar - everything reminds me of him. I break down at the little things. All I know how to do right now is to go to meetings and take suggestions from program peeps.
You are not alone. We all think we are alone but we have each other. I was devastated when my AHsober left after a long, long, marriage. But you can't make someone love you. The pain is huge but our HP's will help us. Hang in there.
Priscilla - I'm sending you a hug! You're not alone. Keep leaning on your HP and your Al Anon family. You're doing a good job - it's hard! Hang in. Walking through the pain is intense, but you'll know yourself better on the other side.
You're not alone, many of us are in similar situations!
My AW snuck off on Wednesday to go party NYE with a friend, and hasn't come back. But amazingly, I feel OK! The main reason is expectations- I don't have any. I gave up on that a while ago, and have finally come to 100% live it.
Everyone here I expect has lived through- or is going through- something like what you are. So you are not alone, because NOBODY understands better than fellow Al Anon friends!
