just like I've slipped into another world.  No atmospheric noise...no traffic...no family
noise...no dog noise.   It is spiritually quiet at the moment just as if everyone in my
world is sitting down quiet, relax and still and just being peaceful and happy.   I am
getting just what I want for the first time in my life and just what my HP wants for me
a quiet spirit.  My soul was created for this...I have no words of gratitude expansive
enough to express a proper thanks.  I haven't looked to see if there is another shoe
that can drop...this is the real thing "Peace of mind and serenity" the goal of our
program.

We woke up to it.  A clear, peaceful, quiet day.  Everything was peaceful even the
ocean and the trees and the sky.  We started our journey as if in another time and
place.  First thing wake up and acknowledge HP and my relationship to HP.  Then
down to the sea...the shore to drift some lavender anthyriums in favor of the spirit
of Olivia.  The ocean was soooo flat and blue and the shore waves just eddys around
the rocks.  Of course there were two honus (ocean turtles) right at our feet.  What a
lifetime experience but I am always amazed how HP abides and then the choice to
chant a while for HP and all those who have gone on before us including Olivia that
we still want them, feel them and need their guidance and during the chanting the
sea stood up and moved inward.  The waves were tall and majestic with their white
veils following their path and I knew HP was present.  I know Olivia heard.  We
watched for a minute more and then went to the Christmas event I could not miss;
the gathering of our "family" in recovery.  It's been a year missing most and months
missing some and god I am so grateful to be in the same room with sooo many loving
and grateful miracles.  There were 50 or more thirty miles out of town in a scenic spot
and house of one of our family members and his wife.  It was a pot luck (boy when some
people don't drink they can sure cook huh?) and that was just for starters.  I am in awe
what HP can do with our program of recovery.  These people are not just alive...their
lives glow and make happy sounds and their hugs give off messages that you are loved
and esteemed and a necessary part of it all.   Mahalo Akua...Thank you God.

I am still learning.   "If you keep an open mind you will find help" (from the closing of
our Al-Anon meetings.)  My first promise coming true from within the program.  I don't
dare close my mind to it all and as I stand and watch it all and participate in it...I have
no defense against unconditional love and no justification not to practice it. 

My sponsor was there and I talked to him about some new awarenesses and he wanted
some also...I use to be in the auto sales industry and we wanted some guidance into
buying a new truck....LOL  sponsorship even is joyous.

It is sooooo still and peaceful now...a good time to just practice gratitude for being
given to.

In this vision and mindset you all also stand there some faces know and most not
and still I know all of your hearts and unconditional love.  You have taught me to
do the same...constantly without excuse and from that I feel gifted.  We are family
and we are blessed.

Mahalo Jerry F (((((hugs)))))