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level.
I just wanted to Thank those who took the time to read and respond to my post.
As you can tell my life has been anything but "level" as of late and it seems that as soon as I try to pull myself up, something else is thrown back at me, but again I try to get up. Today started out with ripping loose some of my sutures from trying to tie my shoes-lol! Looking back it was probally quite hilarious to watch.
I am grateful for many things in my life, and know I am blessed. Please don't mistake my depression or lack of faith at this point as not being grateful-I am. I am also VERY beat down........this last bout with Dr's started almost 3 years and 2 surgeries ago....I am very tired and feel emotionally depleted and spent from it all and to face the possibility of another surgery after this last nightmare, and AFTER a biopsy of my lung, has me feeling mentally exhausted and unable to think straight and stay on track.
I don't compare myself to others, nor my recovery......it is all my own, and it is a slow process, but a process that I take daily, with a sponsor who is by my side 100%, and a f2f group that shows unconditional love, compassion and support. And I have my MIP family which continues to hold me up and hold the light to lead the way to Serenity Park:)
Thank each of you for your ESH, and I hope you all have a very blessed Christmas!
shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!