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I now feel my AH is at the point of no return. He spends most of the time in bed, doesn't eat and only moves to drag himself to local shop for more fags and brandy. His only hope, I feel, would be a long spell in residential treatment which neither I nor the (UK) National Health Service can afford.
I do not usually stay down for long but I am becoming increasingly depressed. I just feel beaten by by the whole sorry mess that alcohol has caused.
-- Edited by Tattyhead on Wednesday 16th of December 2009 03:36:40 PM
I'm sorry for what you are going thru. Remember HP never gives us more than we can handle, and if you feel like you can't take it anymore, just put it in his hands.
Lots of hugs and prayers all the way from Costa Rica.
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Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable.
I know only to well the affects of depression....it is the most awful feeling in the world...the crying, sleeping.....maybe think about getting some counseling...it can't hurt...I will keep you in my prayers....this disease affects the entire family..keep posting....do what you need to to for you......right now....just please try and take care of you.
I have been sharing your struggle with depression lately and I can tell you it is a horrible place to be......the crying, the needing to sleep all the time, it is terrible.
Please keep coming back, posting and doing whatever else you can do to take care of you.
Shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
I can really relate to the depression that we all live with. Even now as I know my AH is sober and has been for 6 months, I am still depressed because I have no trust still. Every phone call is suspect, he is still not working after 2 yrs and I may lose my home. Yes. I am depressed. I pray for my HPs will and not my own. I still have resentment, etc. Do whatever you need to do for yourself to feel better. I am praying for you.
You are in my prayers. You are describing the horrible weight of this horrible disease.
Are you and you A able to discuss the situation? Can he be taken to an emergency room and seen by a doctor and put in hospital for a week or so?
Does he accept any responsibility for himself? It sounds like the stage where you are caring more for him than he cares for himself.
I have been through that and it accounts for the most despairing moments of my life. All was bleak and completely hopeless. Only way out was to take care of myself with meetings and contact with other recovery people. I pray he will soon realize how sick he is.
