The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today the ex boyfriend is coming to get the things of his that are still at my house. I am needless to say anxious. I hope I can conduct myself in a way that is in step with my hp. No finger pointing, no mention of new gf or marriage. Make the spilt. I am trying to remember the good and the painful. The good so I can just be someone I am proud to be. The painful so I remember I ended the relationship because of crossed boundries and that nothing has changed on any of those fronts.
I woke up and had a conversation with hp and when I listened he told me that there is a whole world out there for me to explore. Although this bf was my fishing partner, I have plenty of fishing friends I can get a hook wet with. Hp also told me I do not have to be in a relationship to make life whole. I have to nurture and love myself to be whole. I also see that I am lonely and that makes me romance the relationship. I have to stay out of fantasy land.
So I am going to hang in there have a couple of hours until he said he will be here. Please pray for me, That I can be the person my hp wants me to be.
I'm praying for your serenity and strength. I'm wondering if you can get busy doing something so you can short circuit the anxiety? Isn't it time you cleaned your oven? Or maybe clean out you closet? Or what about a good book? Preferably something that will keep you busy when he arrives.
