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My A son came out of a 28 day rehab and drank , I think, the following day. His insurance from his job, which he didn't return to, expired 10/31. He made sure to go to his therapist who prescribes his antidepressant on 10/28 so to be sure he had more refills before his insurance ran out. He just calls me this morning to tell me that he never got the Rx filled and do I think they will still cover it since it was written on the 28th of Oct. I told him no, I am pretty sure they will not pay for it so of course he will not be able to get it. I AM NOT PAYING FOR HIS Rx!!!!! He will just have to stop taking it. I doubt if it helps anyway while he is still drinking. I have been praying to my HP to please give me the strength to completely let him go. I cannot take it anymore. I cannot keep him afloat any longer and I just want to be free of his crap. I don't even like him much when he is sober right now.
Hi Gail.......the only way I have been able to cope is by detaching detaching detaching. Its not easy but I have to, and need to keep practicing at it because it keeps me sane. I try not to (doesnt always work) have chaos conversations with my Ason anymore....ties knots in my head and heart. When the phone used to go I would have palpitations and want to vomit, even now I ask my husband to answer the phone first, gives me time to be still and calm myself for the onslaught!! I still get wobbly but not so bad (Ill need to work on that one)
If its a drunken tale of woe I say under my breath I didnt cause it, I cant control it....... if its something I can help with that he cant do for himself I will do what I can, if its something he cant do or didnt do because of being drunk and incapable then he has to own that and fix it, or not himself..... plus he usually wont remember if I said yay or nay anyway!
My current mantra to him seems to be... Im sorry this has happened, I cant fix it...there is another path you can walk..... I love you... take care, then I hang up and say the serenity prayer.
My son phoned me twice last week, the second time was to say thanks for his birthday card, I said.... you phoned a couple of days ago and said that, and then started on the poor mes so I hung up on you......he laughed when I told him this, (I didnt find it funny) he hadnt a clue but he said you did the right thing Mum, I should be able to sort it myself......hey ho.
I understand when you say you dont even like him sober at the moment, this is an issue I am currently working on with my son ......taking it odat
Awww Gail, Im sorry you are having such a ruff time. YOu are correct in that the anti-depressant meds will do absolutely no good if your Son is still drinking. Im saying some prayers for you both this morning.
I hear this same tired pattern from doctors over here. NO ONE wants to confront alcoholism as a disease, and they prescribe antidepressants to active, serious A's and then they go looney. I don't blame you for 'ranting'. It sounds teribly like dealing with a heroin addict.
In my experience, if you get between the bottom and a drunk I'm gonna' get crushed. If I detach and let people find their own bottom's and higher powers, I can get in better touch with mine.
I told him no, I am pretty sure they will not pay for it so of course he will not be able to get it. I AM NOT PAYING FOR HIS Rx!!!!! He will just have to stop taking it. I doubt if it helps anyway while he is still drinking. I have been praying to my HP to please give me the strength to completely let him go. I cannot take it anymore. I cannot keep him afloat any longer and I just want to be free of his crap. I don't even like him much when he is sober right now.