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I'm so tired of always seeming to take a step forward and feeling pretty decent to then taking two steps back. I feel I never make any progress!! I know that I can't just get over my AH overnight, but I'm tired of feeling sad and thinking about it. Sometimes I hate my brain and wish I could get some shock therapy or something.
I meet with a lawyer tomorrow morning and I'm scared, scared to find out whats going to happen and what's next, and I'm scared and angry that he doesn't seem to care that any of this is happening at all. I'm angry at him for getting to make the decision on our lives and that I didn't get the opportunity to say I'm done, that he got to do it and moved on so easily.
Dont feel alone. I am in the same place as you, I havent even got in touch with anyone legal yet, cos im too scared to find out what could happen....I am exactly where you are, you have expressed my exact sentiments about how my AH left when I wasnt done either and he has sailed into the blue yonder,but we will get there and we are not alone...take care and good luck with your meeting. Lillyx
For what it's worth, our progress is seldom a "straight line".... I'd encourage you to expand your scale a bit - compare where you are today, with where you were a month ago, or a year ago - whatever works..... I think you'll find that you ARE moving forward - and in a better place than you once were...
Take care Tom
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