The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The Christmas holidays have been some of the hardest times for me. When I was with the ex A there was tremendous conflict. I had been looking forward to working on them with my current therapist. Last week she announced she is leaving so I won't have any continuity over the holidays. For a couple of days I stewed in feeling neglected and abandoned. I had visions of insisting I get someone else right away so I can work through the issues. I have now settled on asking for someone else but not counting on getting it. The holidays are my issues, it would be great to have someone to work on them with but if I don't I have al anon and I can go to a meeting a day for a while.
I know normally I would let this kind of stuff throw me for a loop. Having choices is new for me.
I totally relate. Today, I am choosing to believe that my house being taken from me, must mean that hp has a better plan. For me, it takes nearly a constant connection to this fellowship, to keep holding up that kind of faith.
"It's going to be okay."
I can't hear it often enough.
Today, I abandon myself to that thought.
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
