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My dry drunk has said he's going to a meeting tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, I know I shouldn't get excited, but I want SOME HOPE. We had an intense counseling session yesterday with our addictions counselor/MC and for a while I really felt like this man (MC) who I dearly respect wasn't listening to me when I said I was merely setting boundaries for my husband. At one point, he said, "How do you think he feels when you're threatening him with divorce?" For one time in my life I WAS CALM in marriage counseling and replied...."I'm not threatening. I have my plan, all drawn up and ready to go....that's not a threat, it's my action plan all ready, and I'm sorry to respectfully disagree."
Somewhere between that beginning and then me telling him that my husband practically assaulted me with a bottle of wine asking me if I wanted a drink my MC shifted HIS thoughts quickly and REALLY focussed on my husbands behavior for the 1/2 hr left in the session. It was a hard fast reality check for him. It was NOT at ALL what my husband wanted to hear and I know he left feeling defeated, sad, depressed. I also knew to "let him be" with those feelings because I couldn't fix him after that session, so I went about my business, was kind, and today, he seemed well, and announced he was meeting up with someone to go to a meeting tonight.
I've been praying and praying to my HP. I've been trying desperately to hand him over. It has NOT been an easy journey and this may be the beginning OR end, but just pray for us for today please...
sending up prayers and thoughts that whatever is in store for you - that you will find within you the strength, courage and wisdom that you need to walk that path in front of you. That you will know you are NOT alone - you have a HP of your understanding to walk with you, a recovery family to support you and your own strength that IS greater than what you can imagine.
HOW awesome for you to be willing to do what is best and healthy for YOU - that is wonderful self care!! You deserve that - you are worthy of it!!
Let Go and Let God
Praying for your HP's BEST for you and your AH!!!
HUGS (hope, unity, gratitude and serenity) Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
