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Hello everyone, this is very new for me. I am a 25 year old male from Australia and I have just started to practice the road to my own recovery. My parents have tried for many years to get me to go to Al-anon. I finally attended on the weekend, and the rush of emotions I felt at the end of the day when I talked to my partner were unbelievably overwhelming. I felt miserable for a few days and very lost (the constant pacing, looking for things to do), but at least I had some support to talk it out.
The main reason for my choosing to combat this sickness now is I have found somebody very special after many years of trying, and I don't want to ruin it because I chose not to fight this illness. I have failed in previous relationships, including a 5-year one where the main problems were my anger and temper getting the better of me. The way my self esteem plummeted over the smallest thing going wrong, and unfortunately also seeking affirmation/approval off other women... At least it was a major learning experience, and my ex-partner and I have resolved our issues to be occasional friends.
I am now with a woman in a long-distance relationship, who since the beginning I have been honest about. I told her all about how my parents were chronic alcohol and drug abusers since I was 5 and up until 22 years of age, where since then in 2007 they seem to have become sober, clean and found God as their strength. My partner has been more than courageous, and has never flinched when I told her about the long battle that is ahead of me to overcome these demons. Her undying support as well as the support of my family to proceed brings me here today to finally take the right step forward.
Yesterday I started a new job in Finance, doing mortgages. All through the day I felt miserable and knew I shouldn't be here. I worked in banking for the last 8 months before going to see my partner, and I accepted it and thrived in the role, but my passion is in Nursing. So I resigned from the job today, decided to take steps to attend more meetings, and get as much Nursing work as I can, even that the fact my income will now be slashed is a real downer and something that has made me feel depressed. But I have the full support of my loved ones and it has helped made this very difficult decision.
I look forward to helping anybody I can with my own personal experiences over the years, and greatly appreciate any input or advice.
Congratulations on finally getting to our program , you have no idea where it will take you , so buckle up your in for one hell of a ride as for your nursing go for it , we have to work so why not do what u love . good luck Louise
Awesome story! Welcome! It sounds like you are right where you are supposed to be. I, too, have my own demons that I MUST face in order to be free from my own disease of perception, of always feeling less than, always feeling as though my worth was determined by what I was DOING and not simply by who I was.
I admire you for following what you truly love. I struggle tremendously with my job. It is not what I like or what I want to do. I am almost beginning to see that I am doing myself a disservice by remaining in a position that at times is intolerable. I am hesitant to follow my true interest, for fear that it is not a realistic career path. Thank you so much for sharing here!!
as for your nursing go for it , we have to work so why not do what u love . good luck Louise
