Been working out some much needed things in my mind & heart these last couple weeks. Haven't been here quite as much as usual, however I know that If I don't get "ME" back on track, I am going to stay "STUCK" and I don't want that...

My boy turned 12 yesterday, and after spending a long weekend at our Camp, I realized, I am quite blessed. I got to enjoy my Grandchildren for the 1 day they stayed, and I took a 6hour float with ASister, and my Son... and Her and I talked about some things that had been UnSaid, while my Son led the way :) ... And she wasn't drinking so that was nice...

We met a couple on the River we had seen one time before, and they probably spent 2 hours with us, just chatting...Great Couple both turning 40, they had no kids, had been married a good while, and just said that they enjoyed each other so much, and their life style that kids was not something they planned on. They both work, and like to play and when they get time off work they spend it on the River, Ocean, or in the mountains...

How I envy'd the time they got doing that stuff, and then it HIT ME... What do I have to be envyous of... I have a good marriage (Get'n better everyday thank to MY program), I have a Son I adore, and love, I get to spend time at the river, floating, and just being me, Driving my Harley thru the hills, I get to do Many things that I love. And I think I am finally starting to get a handle on it...

I was so use to Living in the "Insanity", that it took me a while for "Calm" to be able to make sense... I no longer pertisipate in my "AFamily" drama... And I explained that to my ASister the other day... My ABrother (Who is the "WORST" A Currantly in my Family), I have backed away slowly, I have handed him to his HP, and I have faith that what is ment to be for him, Will Be! In doing this, He now Text me, not wanting nothing, (Which NEVER happened before), and Yesterday on my way home from Camp, he had text and said "Hey Can u wish (My son) a Happy B-day from Me Please. I was goin 2 call but figured U were @ river with no service, Luv Ya!" With a smiley face...

Let me just say... That is the absolute FIRST TIME EVER... He Remembered my Sons Birthday... Now I am not swinging on "Moon Beams" and I dont have ANY Expectations of what will conspire next with him, But That ment something to me, And I know it did my son as well... That is what is important, and I let him read it, instead of telling him what it said, so that he knew, instead of blowing it off... ;)

So I know my presents has not been here alot, but i am still working it, I haven't been to a F2F in about 3 weeks, and I hate it, but honestly when they are available here of late, I am either to exhausted, or not home... But I do come on here and abserve and read when I get a few seconds, just my responses have been minimal... SORRY :( This program has been a blessing to me, For I am finally get'n my ducks lined up enough that things can be Peaceful, and Calm, And I can "Except" what I CAN NOT Change... The Serenity Prayer is such a blessing to me, and I still use it everyday... MANY TIMES...Along with my daily readers....

Now if I could just get some energy, to get my body in motion a little more, and I think I may have nipped that in the butt this morning Thanks to My SIL...SO things are looking up, I am still moving forward, just some days, the pace takes longer then I have time :) Thanks all for stickin it out with me, the Good & The Bad... :)

Blessed in Recovery :)
One Moment at A Time:)
Love & prayers
Jozie