The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Im grateful to this board, to all of you for sharing your ES&H...thank you.
When I found MIP one dark day in January it started me on the path to recovery. Im a slow work in progress, building my Strength which sustains my Hope because my Experience of alcoholism took me to the end of my rope.
I am still reading here every day, attending my f2f once a week.
I hadnt realised just how much ofme I had lost..... how completely saturated and absorbed in my sons illness I had become.
Everything I am learning here, and in Al-anon, is helping and strengthening me.... enabling me to remain detached from his disease, (which is currently active). I am able to show compassion. I help and encourage him where I can....always remembering not to do for him what he can do for himself. I am astonished at how differently I am handling things and how calm I am remaining. I am taking care of me first.
He has just had a 4 day drinking binge after 7 or so weeks dry. Hes currently trying to come off it again, having taken to his bed and hasnt moved for 12 hours, except to get up and vomit!
He knows he has to leave our home if it continues.....we are arranging with his doctor for him to return to assisted housing, where he was before, if he continues to feed his disease. ( By the way I love what Christy posted on Codependents post earlier today).....hope its ok to put it here.
One evening, a grandfather was teaching his young grandson about the internal battle that each person faces.........There are two wolves struggling inside each of us,' the old man said........One wolf is vengefulness, anger, resentment, self-pity, fear...............The other wolf is compassion, faithfulness, hope, truth, love.' The grandson sat, thinking, then asked: 'Which wolf wins, Grandfather?........His grandfather replied...... 'The one you feed.
WOW................I have printed it out and left it on his bedside table!
My message today is one of hope. I was at rock bottom and beyond but am a different person today...as the wiser ones than me here tell us....it works if you work it. Glad I listened.
In gratitude and sending warmest Scottish (((huggles))) to you all.
Thanks for your share N ess Just like you I have begun to realise that I have disapeared when I decided to focus on myself and get stronger my AB went to AA. I have slipped lately loosing myself once more focusing on his recovery rather than my own. Thanks again for the memory jog
Good program work and compassionate responses to your son. (God bless him). I wouldn't doubt that something Christy might share here would help your son also, wise woman that she is.
