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Seems like so many times updates can be filled with sad news - I guess maybe it depends on perspective - hmm perspective or attitude - it appears that is one of the many lessons that I have learned in recovery . . .
the majority of my battle is with my perspective and my attitude.
So today my attitude is one of hope and of a positive perspective.
I am almost 8 months FREE from living with active addiction - I would LOVE to tell you that the divorce is final and I am free of all financially obligations of that 16 plus yr marriage but that is not true.
My ex in the insanity of his disease - is doing everything in his power and with the assistance of Community Property Laws in Louisiana to delay the divorce and property settlement. It will take many, many years for me to recovery financially from the disasters he is causing. (garnishment of my wages for his bills, non-payment of the house the court awarded him, bankruptcy, refusing service of divorce papers, changing attorneys, blah, blah, blah)
BUT what I can tell you is that my heart leaps with joy - there is freedom, peace and serenity in so much of my life.
I still have a wonderful relationship with all of my daughters (even my step daughters) - I am soon to be a grandmother again - twice !! - this will make me a grandmother of 9 - yes NINE!!
My world is filled with so much love, trust, friendship and many, many blessings. Yes, I have lost many material things - some that truly meant a lot to me. Some of you may remember - that beautiful home that I waited so long for after Hurricane Rita - it was one of those losses. I have gone thru the grief process and allowed the God of my understanding to heal me - some of the wounds are still fresh and are a little sensative at times - but I cling to the promise that with time - it will get better.
Again - today - Life is blessed. I no longer dread going home - I never have to wonder what will await me as I open that door - I know that the place I call home now is filled with my God's love, peace and joy.
I pray that each of you have that same experience. I am grateful that recovery, the God of my understanding and the love and support of my recovery friends helped me walk this path to get to this place. It ain't always easy but it is well worth the battle.
Wishing you Serenity, Joy and Peace - Please don't give up before the miracles happen in you - YOU DESERVE THEM!!!
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
Yes...I remember that home you waited so long for after the hurricane. I am so sorry you had to leave it but am very happy that you now have peace and serenity in your own home. That is so much more important. I am glad you posted.
I lost tremendously when I left the ex A, a home, most of my things, a garden which I adored. I gained tremendously after a while and am now working on regrouping. There is no question my finances were absolutely ravaged and coming to acceptance about that has taken a long long while.
