I have been thinking a lot about my BF lately and his effect on my kids.  The oldest says she hates him regularly but she hates everyone right now.  I have come to the conclusion that she wants her mom, all of me, all the time no matter how much she says she hates me and he takes up some of that time.  My middle daughter says that she doesn't like him and her reasons are centered around fears that he will leave but lately it seems that she has been developing an attachment to him, my son is almost as in love with him as I am I think.  For a guy who started off saying he never wanted kids, never wanted to be a dad and doesn't have the "dad feeling" inside of him... He sure is turning out to be the best dad they have ever had.  When everyone else tells my son to move, get out of the way, go find something to do (including me...) my BF says sure you can help cook, sure you can put together this project with me, sure I'll listen to you and give you my time.  I'm learning more about how to be a good parent by watching a guy who never had kids and never wanted to than I ever have from "real" parents.  Seems so ironic to me. 

The other day I asked him how he knew he loved me and he said....  I told my friend after my last girlfriend and I broke up that I would never date another single mother - and she had a sweet little four year old girl.  You have 3 kids and a 14 year old daughter who hates my guts and I can't imagine my life without you now.  I now understand the meaning of loving someone more every day.