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Well today was a bit of a drag'n day, I don't think I have seen but glimpses of Sunlight.. ALL Week!!! I am a girl that NEEDS Sun... Energy, power, the hole 9...
Well make it thru today, got some things done was very grateful for that, then hubbie took me to dinner since I did all the Push mowing while he and the boy get to ride..Their so good to me :).
Welp... Get a call from my Aunt (Deceased Afathers Sister) to let me know that most likely I will be hearing from the cops... GREAT!!!! I ask why, well apparently when My afather was still alive, he had a 45 pistol, that was stolen... And today some guy tried to shoot himself, and (Luckly only shot himself in the leg...) of course the Gun they found was registered to my father... Sooo More drama...
I honestly... I could see this being in the hands of my Afather deseased or not, he would play such a trick...He always thought himself funny, and he was... I have been prayin for the answer to these final questions in my head... This is him reminding me I am not done yet...I just need to
My Afathers humor was one thing that the two of shared ALOT... We could cut up and carry on like no other when together... I miss those times alot, but still try to remember them fondly... My afather did have a disease, that he couldn't at the end fight any more, he knew it, and so did everyone around him, but he wasn't the most horrible man either... His worst enemy was Himself, and it wasn't that he didn't love us, he just didn't know if he was doing it right... I have those moments myself were I wonder if my love is really that... Dad knew the words, but not so much the action...
He always joked with me, that he would always come back to haunt me... And after the call from My Aunt... The song "Glory Days..." Came on the radio by Bruce Springsteen... (Glory Days...Will Pass You By... Glory Dayyyysssss), that would be my fathers humor in all this.. His way of saying... "Don't get so excited"... He always told me a worried to much... I WONDER WHY!!!
It is moments like this I know that he is still around, he hasn't gone anywere... And who knows, maybe we can have a better relationship NOW, until we meet again..
I have always believed that my Grandma (moms mom), comes to me in the shape of a "Yellow" butterfly, She has for years, people usually peg me as crazy when I tell them of these things, but I suppose it is all about your own beliefs...And your inner Spirit.. I am so blessed to have not lost mine... And now with HP in the pic with me, I think I am about to move a couple mountains... If the Sun Ever Comes out...lol...
Thanks for listen, sorry so long... So Glad tomorrow is a new day with new excitement... Almost can't wait to get to bed to see whats next
Thanks, Jozie, sometimes I hear a song on the radio & it lets me know where I am! I don't know much about what someone might say or do after they are gone to let us know what we need to hear! Personally, I feel a connection to my late aunt. But,,,I never feel her presence at all! Maybe she doesn't have anything to say! Keep listening & sharing, You have so much to say!
