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SO I brought some clothes and what not went back to the apartment to see if we could be alright and stay there without arguing too much and what not. Well his girlfriend is all psycho and got all jealous when I went back and constantly calls and doesn't let him spend any time there. She obviously doesn't trust him around me for very long.
We were there 3 nights and my A probably spent a few hours with my son besides yesterday he took him out of town 2 hours to visit his sister. I was worried about it because didn't want him drinking and driving back. I did let him take him thinking he would be smart enough to just spend the night there if he got durnk. We talked about it and basically he just LIES LIES and LIES.
He called me at 9pm last night said he was home so I could go there to watch my son because his girlfriend gets off work at 10pm. Well I told him I was at the park grilling and what not with friends and would be there shortly. I get there one hour later to find him passed out on the floor and my son in the fridge playing with kool aid. He was full of it and it was ALL over the fridge. So I went to neighbors just to talk to someone.
He drove 2 hours home with MY baby in the car and an hour later passes out?? He can't get that drunk in one hour and pass out, plus there was no liquor in the house. I am ANGRY now. Well about 30 minutes later my son ended up being too loud and woke him up. I told him he could give my son a bath and clean out the fridge and explained to him what happened. I was NICE about it all.
He gave our son a bath and then started to clean out the fridge, well my son is not even 2 you can't just leave him in bath alone so I finished it up. Asked my A to put pajamas on him and get him to bed because he put his shoes on like he was about to leave. And he refused to. He left. So I called my sister packed the few things I brought there and left. I left him a note and said do not call us until you can get yourself some help.
I don't want to be here at my sisters, but at least I don't have to deal with his drunkness (if that's even a word..). I don't know why he can't just leave the apartment. He is never there brought most of his clothes to this other girls house.
So Im not going to answer his calls. Told him I was going out of town so he doesn't just show up here, but who knows he still might.
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Melissa am so glad u went back for those few days and have made your decission , your son is way too important to be put at risk like that , you would never forgive yourself . His girlfriend ? you deserve to be treated with respect mel hopfully u know that now , you do count . You will find the help you need keep going to social services til u get the support u deserve . Hang in there life will get better for you and son . thinking of you Louise
I too am glad you realized you can not trust the A with your child. I had a rude awakening for myself. My A took my son camping and hit a tree (drunk) in the campground. My son was in the back of A's pick-up when he hit the tree. It could have been a horrible tragedy.
That was the last time I EVER trusted the A with my son. I couldn't imagine that he would choose alcohol over his son. In fact he PROMISED not to. How much in denial was I? A's WILL choose alcohol above ALL else, EVERYTIME.
Christy
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Hi Melissa, You did give it a second chance and it has become very clear that neither you or you child will flourish in his home.
As Abby suggests, please continue to seek social services in you State.
God was good!! he spared your son!!! I really hope you believe with all your heart that his man is dangerous for your son.......
Please not only seek social services, but PLEASE work on your program....YOU need you...Your BOY needs you...WHO has this innocent/helpless child have if you don't work on you and get healthy and give him a good example of a healthy life so HE isn't in al-anon 20 years from now.....
I know you have the guts....Your posts show strength....Now it is time to REACH OUT....CLAIM your good health....This boy needs you.....Get a good sponsor...Get into the meets....Get workbooks on the steps....I did it and I thank God each day that my pain was bad enough to force me into recovery.....I came here almost suicidal....Now I am being restored....I have to work on it , it is not free....I must work on me each day but I am WORTH it....So ARE YOU
Beautiful job really paying attention to what was going on, being honest with YOURSELF, and remembering that you still had (and have) choices. Well done.
Good for you for giving it an effort, but at the same time, going in with you Eyes Wide Open and seeing what is right for you and your son...I have a son as well, and I limit his time around his AUncle and at one point his APap Pap, he knows there will never be a day he is permitted to get in a vehicle with his Uncle EVER...And he also knows why... Your son is just a baby, so he still has a chance NOT to be a part of this horrible disease...
You came to YOUR OWN rescue as well.. And that I know was a hard choice to make, but I am grateful you put you and your baby Ahead of your A, and have realized first hand what this disease can/Will do to the people that choose to not seek recovery... Good for you
Take it Only One Day at A Time... I know you don't want to be at your sisters, but your right... It is much better then your other Option.. And I'm Sure... A lot safer, and more loving for your Son... he needs you so Keep Up the Good Work...
