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I must be ugly?


Geez, dang why did my AH have to have a stupid brain tumor and have a medical relapse then be too retarded to get back on program?????

This is so awful sometimes. I used to tell the people who said why do you stay, hey what if your husband all of a sudden was not him anymore? What if it was from a brain cancer? Would you leave??

Anyway ok I did join the JW match site. No one has contacted me even to just email. Lost of people look.It is in HP's hands. I am not stressed. Don't like this. I always met neat men thru my animals or his.

Once I was in a white outfit and a guys dog jumped on me. Another was walking his dog and I rode my horse to where he was and started talking. He tried to ride my horse and he bucked him off! haha
Anothers dog got into my rabbits cage. Rabbit was ok, this guy purrade carrots for him....

sigh.

My horrible lonelies are gone like I said. I wonder now if it was that stupid medication?? Trazadone?

I miss my husbands. both of them, I Hate addiction. here I am middle aged, flat tummy is, NOT, neck is sorta weird, and my skin looks weird too.

Like I can ever be naked in front of a husband again anyway!!And this is an old hippie lady who when young wore overalls and thats all!! With long hair to her butt. Used to be well she's gone.

I am actually very ok for my age.  It is very hard to be a woman and go thru so many changes.

Both my husbands loved me no matter what. My AH never said anything about my body when he was drunk. He was just obnoxious....

It's not fair is it? I mean I am still in love with both my stupid husbands. I could kill them for leaving me.

On a lighter side, these puppies are a hoot. They think my nose is a chew toy.lol They are about the size of a large mans fist with tiny short legs. lol They sorta march around,  the house.

I put my fence up, goal to paint twelve feet a day until it is done ,white.

Bob pig rolled in the mud and scratched on my painted panel. Now my panel is dirt brown and Bob is white...plus he keeps laying against the gate.

He also got into the cat room, ate all the cat food, trashed their beds and mad himself a nest out of their blankies.

I saw the neighbors were barbecuing and thought about, digging a hole and cooking someone...

lol and I am a vegie! 

hugs, debilyn

-- Edited by debilyn on Sunday 17th of May 2009 03:50:17 AM

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(((Debilyn)))

Your beauty is obvious inside and out.

I love the way you describe where you are in life, the memories of younger days and younger partners. That young woman is still there and shining through.

For me living in a city I do not have any animals around me. The tales of you and yours makes me laugh, I too am a veggie so the thought of you joining the neighbours BBQ  with your own recipe biggrin brilliant.

With love hugs and Gratitude Carol



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(((Deblyn))) awwI love your posts. I so relate to what you say and the situation you are in.
You are awesome and your pets are gorgeous!!
thankyou for sharing your life so fearlessly with us.
You are so inspiring.
Silverbrumby



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This was a wonderful post.  I can relate to the part of your animals(animal lover myself) and your looks.

When I married husband 27 years ago, good Lord, could not keep the guys away!!!!  Now, gained so much weight, I had lapband almost 2 years ago.  Eight years ago, I had total knee replacement.  Five years ago, the hip replacement happened!!!!  Not once, but 3 times in less that a year.  They had to redo the hip twice after the first surgery.

Well, as a result, I have a horrible limp; have handicapp plates on my car; nothing sexy about a woman getting out of a car with handicapp plates.  But you know what???  My husband loves me no matter what.  My sweet beagle Bonnie Lou loves me dearly too. 


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Being able to smile one the inside is beautiful.
Making the best out of a not so good situation is beautiful.
You are HP's Little Lamb, You are beautiful!
Sincerely,
Tonya

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((((((((sister)))))),

I know how you feel, I feel I am to young to be a widow and too old to be single.

Hell, we were all beautiful when we were younger.  The thing we need to remember is we are still beautiful.

For me the worst times are the weekends, my kids go out on their merry way and here I sit alone, I get pissed sometimes and think this should be the best time of my marriage.....I am alone....

Take care of your beautiful spirit....

Andrea

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I am 62..Very cute for my age...Look mid 40's and I don't seem to attract anyone much lately either..

Maybe its b/c I am gettng healtly and the sicko's are the majority and thus, I am alone....The unhealthy ones stay away from me now..Its like they have radar, "who they can use/abuse" and I have fallen out of that radar

If HP has someone , he is going to have to dump him on me because I just have LET IT GO.....I really don't care so much, yea it would be nice to have someone HEALTHY to share with, but if that is not under HP's plan, who would WANT anything out of God's will???? So I make my OWN life...Take me out to dinner...Take me to movies if I want...I am going to get back into tennis if these rains ever stop and just be my OWN good partner/playmate...

That is what I am doing..I no longer sit and hope for a decent guy....I make my OWN way and whatever will be, will be

Uglyness, to me, is evil deeds...evil thoughts.........If one has a good heart?? And all others look at is their face or their body??? Who wants anyone that shallow????

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Girls-Girls-Girls,

All of you are a blast. I enjoyed every post. I guess I'm just a "half" veggie, because I love them on my hambugers when I cook out. -------- OOPS !!!!!

Hugs To All,
RLC

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I'm lonely too.  I realize I don't have the skills to have a relationship yet.  Nevertheless I'm pretty darn lonely.

Maresie.

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Boy, do I know THAT feeling!  When  I was married to AH, he used to say the meanest things about me, call me fat, disgusting, gross, all kinds of the meanes things he could think of....
AND I am NOT gross...look pretty good for everything I have been thru.....so what....we all get older, and the thing about life is...NOBODY gets out alive....OR looking like the did when they were 20 either,if they live past that.....

I am dating a man who is 10 years younger than I am....at first was real hesitant to be naked around him.....but he is HOT and he thinks I look just fine!  LOL

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, you know.....

We ALL get wrinkles, hair color goes, hair goes, feet get ugly, skin isn't dewy like it was once......but that is just the physical side of us...

I thought my ex AH was handsome...but he was MEAN INSIDE!

Wish I looked like I did when I was 30-something for my 40-something bf, but alas, I am 50-something.  And you know what???  He doesn't care.  He loves me just the way  I am, and I am having to learn to love myself that way, too.  It's hard!

Just keep on exercising, eating right, resting when you should, pray for HP to give you peace, and you will GLOW!

Love in Recovery,
Becky1


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