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It has been a long while since I have posted, just recently I have rejoined the human race. It feels wonderful, I just woke up on day and I could see life clearly for the first time in a very long long time and it feels great.
It's been almost two years since Chuck ( my husband) has passed. I still miss him, some days are still difficult Thursday would have been our 22nd anniversary, that was a difficult day.
I have learned to take the good with the bad. Most importantly I have learned that life is worth being here, it is worth living.
I have finally got of the pity pot, I threw it away....lol...honestly, I have learned what I have to be grateful for.
I have a wonderful daughter who is starting nursing school this fall, A son I adore and a grand daughter who will be one this month.
I have much to be thankful for I just forgot to look.
I had some issues I developed in the world of self pity and depression. It has been one whole year since I have survived this...wow....I am very proud of myself for this accomplishment.
I know life is on lifes terms. I know today is a good day, I know I am not guaranteed tomorrow.
I know I have the power to make my life what it was.....and that is power.
I am enjoying my family again...things are not perfect are they ever?? However, they are good again....I will take it.
I have missed you all.....most of all I missed myself. Don't forget to smell the roses.
I am only 5 months in the program, but I have already learned so much, and get excited to learn all i can in the "recovery" of it all..
So Sorry to hear of your loss of your husband, I lost my Afather to alcohol this past Thanksgiving, and it is more or less what pushed me to end up here. I also have siblings that are "A's" and I myself have run a round or two with it...
Glad that you found your way back, and hope that you continue to come and post and share your ESH... I am sure you have alot of things to share, for it looks like you had been here for a while according to all the post :)
Glad your here... Keep Coming Back ;) Friends In Recovery :) Jozie
I had some issues I developed in the world of self pity and depression. It has been one whole year since I have survived this...wow....I am very proud of myself for this accomplishment. I know life is on lifes terms. I know today is a good day, I know I am not guaranteed tomorrow. I know I have the power to make my life what it was.....and that is power.
Oh at first in recovery, I was FULL of self pity and anger and yes!! depression with grief........Finally got it pretty much discharged..Just had to keep feeling the feelings..Let them pass through me....Work my program and WOW!! Feel so much better and YES, I am proud of me too for I have come to the point of accepting life ONE DAY at a time.......I have no guarantee of tomorrow, so in case I do?? I make TODAY good, to throw good seed on my garden.........GREAT post
Aloha Sister...I am glad you found your way back home and looked in on us. I am happy with you that you survived the journey and I'll bet Chuck would smile at it also. That you can see beyond the darkness and recognize the moon, sun and stars is a consequence of your work.
Bless you for this share. It's full of hope and love and caring.
(((((hugs)))))
-- Edited by Jerry F on Monday 11th of May 2009 11:52:39 PM
Normally I keep Steelers fans at bay, but for you I always make the exception. Welcome home my long lost friend. You've been missed. Hard to believe it's been 2 years since Chuck passed. Where does the time go? I can't believe the grandbaby is almost 1. Yikes! I know Chuck would be pleased that you've rejoined the living. Perhaps him and Tim are getting together talking about "their girls". My what a conversation they would have. Don't be a stranger. This board can benefit from your E,S and H. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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