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Suzannah


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Yes, it's true.

I work my programme I walk the talk and then my health trips me up and I am vulnerable.

Just when I was thinking that that dreadful virus-ridden-flu-infested air caught me out again and I have a raging temperature whilst I shiver 'cos my clothes are sticking to me from a temperature that is soaring and my hands are icy cold.

Still supporting my daughter as she continues to text me throughout the day on her problems and her dreadful pregnancy and I continue to encourage, listen and support.  However, this afternoon I had to say, I have got to get myself in bed and trying to get warm...my lips were blue...and even though I had managed to get some laundry done earlier and hung it out to blow in the wind - wonderful to have laundry wind dried - then the blackest cloud came from nowhere and I could NOT get myself up to bring it in...my bones had turned to jelly and I was shivering so much...

She took up my text re her problem and never even seemed to notice that I was feeling rather ill.  Not a word of love, care or support for me.

Hey God of my understanding, I got to get over this again and not allow these things to bug me.

Four hours now and not a word from her.   SO  you see, my health when it fails brings me into that vulernability arena and I have to work soooooo hard to LET GO and LET GOD and even think she might respond to my ill health.  She just does not want to know.

Hmmm, this is when one realises that one still harbours a tinsey wincey longing for some sort of repicropal love...wrong...don't go there Sue.  Hold on to your God, He is the only one who can be relied upon to give UNCONDITIONAL LOVE to me in this situation...even if I try so hard to practice that UNCONDITIONAL LOVE towards my hearts-beloved children...yep...don't don't let that sickness screw with your emotion and reasoning...you will be hurt...keep hold of the beloved you have in your God and the servants He sends into your life to minister to you and let go of everyone else and the expectations you fall foul of at times like these.

Thank you for listening.
Suzannah
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((((((((((SUZ)))))))))))

So Sorry you are feeling so bad... I do hope that you are up and running again here soon, and sounds like you need to Tend to YOU for a little bit, till ya get your feet back under ya, and Warm...

I know what ya mean about no one notice'n when you are sick, but by gosh when they got problems, come Hell or High water... They think it OK to share with you, even tho you are already as down as you can get within your currant illness...

We all stumble in this program, and you are strong so you will get your strength back real soon I am sure... I think you should put that phone in another room, and hibernate in your room till you feel better :)

I have had my phone on Vibrate for the last 3 weeks, and it has been a complete BLESSING to me... Now I read my Phone when "I" want too... And don't feel obligated to answer it everytime it rings...

Will keep you in my prayers Ms. Suz... Love & Hugs to you, and I hope that you feel better real soon...

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Hi,I don't even tell my kids when I am ill. It may be a reason we don't even realise that they cannot nurture us.

Maybe you go out in public before you have your immune system built up and ready. Some people just get better and out they go.

Hey your cloths will be fine. Sometimes I wash everything and hang it before I even know sun is coming. I cannot stand dirty stuff around, so I figure they will dry sooner or later.

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I know you must feel icky to not be able to go get them.

I hope it this does not last long. It is hard to not feel well and not have anyone to care or help from our family.

For me, I just stopped caring about it. Been able to dull out many things that were tearing me up.

Glad you are here more often again. much love,debilyn with a puppy,Brimley,asleep on her chest

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I hear you sister!

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