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That was my middle name, in fact it became my first name, middle name, and last name...in fact JADE was me...to an iota. ....that is... Until I changed my name and stopped - justifying (my every thought, word and deed) apologising (for the flash floods, the volcano eruptions, the toradoes, for breathing and existing), defending (my very existence and need for oxygen) and explaining (my actions, decisions, reactions).
At first I had to till the land and work hard and the landscape looked barren, however just as muscles rebel and groan and ache when they have not been used for a long time, I began to loosen up and become supple and able to do things that I had not been able to even attempt before I found my new fitness. ...my very existance...
As a result I now live in verdant green pastures and see growth where there was stagnant pools of depression, and the fruits of my personal labour are bountiful.
I do have to keep up the good work or the weeds will rampantly take over the my garden will become a wilderness of unkepmt toil and desolation once again.
Right now I feel that Spring comes around along with the other seasons of Summer, Autumn and Winter in a perpetual cycle of healthy rebirth,maturity, growth and death that becomes second nature to me.
ALL the seasons are needed for nature to take it's course, and likewise I need my own seasons too to create, maintain and reap a bountiful harvest.
There is no need to fear the autumn and winters of your life, it is natures way of preparing for rebirth and bountiful fare in the Spring and Summer to see you thro' the fall and the hard times.
We need the rain as much as the sun and the wind and the frost.
Faire thee well dear family as you accept, toil and triumph on your daily quest for health.
After the storm there is always a chance to look for the rainbow and the blue skies emblazoned by a golden sun.
Suzannah
That was my middle name, in fact it became my first name, middle name, and last name...in fact JADE was me...to an iota.....that is... Until I changed my name and stopped - justifying (my every thought, word and deed) apologising (for the flash floods, the volcano eruptions, the toradoes, for breathing and existing), defending (my very existence and need for oxygen) and explaining (my actions, decisions, reactions).At first I had to till the land and work hard and the landscape looked barren, however just as muscles rebel and groan and ache when they have not been used for a long time, I began to loosen up and become supple and able to do things that I had not been able to even attempt before I found my new fitness. ...my very existance...As a result I now live in verdant green pastures and see growth where there was stagnant pools of depression, and the fruits of my personal labour are bountiful.I do have to keep up the good work or the weeds will rampantly take over the my garden will become a wilderness of unkepmt toil and desolation once again.Right now I feel that Spring comes around along with the other seasons of Summer, Autumn and Winter in a perpetual cycle of healthy rebirth,maturity, growth and death that becomes second nature to me.ALL the seasons are needed for nature to take it's course, and likewise I need my own seasons too to create, maintain and reap a bountiful harvest.There is no need to fear the autumn and winters of your life, it is natures way of preparing for rebirth and bountiful fare in the Spring and Summer to see you thro' the fall and the hard times.We need the rain as much as the sun and the wind and the frost.Faire thee well dear family as you accept, toil and triumph on your daily quest for health.After the storm there is always a chance to look for the rainbow and the blue skies emblazoned by a golden sun.
Suzannah
__________________ The day is before me to do with as I will...let me learn the philosophy of acceptance, so that I may be more patient, more thoughtful for others and less concerned with self. Author Unknown
-- Edited by canadianguy on Thursday 7th of May 2009 12:32:23 PM
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
If you copy and paste into a document - change the font (it came out in SYMBOL) you can read it. I was going to repaste but, didn't feel right doing it with someone else's share.
Hope this helps! This is an awesome post. The JADE thing is something I NEVER heard before and would love to hear more on.
i got the part of Justifying....apologizing....defending.......explaining like doing those things to make me feel like i have the right to be here......
sorry, i cold't understand a lot of it, but sounds to me like what i used to do....i thought i had to "plead my case" as to WHY i deserved a life and blessings and restoration of what was lost to me.....
i hope my limited understanding helped you some here.....rosie
That was my middle name, in fact it became my first name, middle name, and last name...in fact JADE was me...to an iota. ....that is...
Until I changed my name and stopped - justifying (my every thought, word and deed) apologising (for the flash floods, the volcano eruptions, the toradoes, for breathing and existing), defending (my very existence and need for oxygen) and explaining (my actions, decisions, reactions).
At first I had to till the land and work hard and the landscape looked barren, however just as muscles rebel and groan and ache when they have not been used for a long time, I began to loosen up and become supple and able to do things that I had not been able to even attempt before I found my new fitness. ...my very existance...
As a result I now live in verdant green pastures and see growth where there was stagnant pools of depression, and the fruits of my personal labour are bountiful.
I do have to keep up the good work or the weeds will rampantly take over the my garden will become a wilderness of unkepmt toil and desolation once again.
Right now I feel that Spring comes around along with the other seasons of Summer, Autumn and Winter in a perpetual cycle of healthy rebirth,maturity, growth and death that becomes second nature to me.
ALL the seasons are needed for nature to take it's course, and likewise I need my own seasons too to create, maintain and reap a bountiful harvest.
There is no need to fear the autumn and winters of your life, it is natures way of preparing for rebirth and bountiful fare in the Spring and Summer to see you thro' the fall and the hard times.
We need the rain as much as the sun and the wind and the frost.
Faire thee well dear family as you accept, toil and triumph on your daily quest for health.
After the storm there is always a chance to look for the rainbow and the blue skies emblazoned by a golden sun.
Suzannah
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"