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Well the past week has been very enlightening for me in sooo many areas, that I felt I should come and share, as so many of you helped to get me where I am right now. Today I feel awesome and so content. I've given my program a lot of thought the past week, and decided that I have to make some changes to it in order to get as much out of it as I possibly can-which is my goal, and I am feeling much happier, contented and free as a result. This program has soooo much to offer and I want to get everything it has to offer to the fullest extent and rebuild a whole new me, from the ground up:). My life has been a rollercoaster ride the past six months, well for many years now, and I want to jump off and take some time to enjoy the new awareness I find myself filling up on. I'm making new friends, and want to make even more and expand some of my service work in time. I want to focus on ME, what I want, what I feel, and what makes ME happy, and work a more dedicated program. The days of living my life to make others happy are gone. I want to really focus on detaching from the things that cause me drama, hurt, unrest, or unhappiness as much as I can and not feel selfish for taking care of me first! Woke up and within minutes thoughts of EXABF popped into my head. It took some time, but within a few minutes I decided to take my focus from that and put it on my HP and His will for me and TRUST in that and that I am right where I need to be, where He wants me to be. TODAY I am ok. It really made me stop and think about awareness even more, and how with it I can put a stop to stinking thinking before it snowballs down on me. It really is a blessing to be part of such a wonderful program and more and more I learn with each passing day that it truly does work if you work it:)
Keeping it in the now shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
Shelly, your subject title says it all for me. Gift, not given. I love that.
Somewhere along the past 5 months, I learned the word toxic in reference to people. I now look at my relationships and am trying to see where and how and IF they are toxic. Some I can't help, such as my parents. They are minimally toxic, but I have some relatives and friends that are extremely toxic, and I've been distancing from them because I can't have that in my life right now. It's hard enough working on me, to worry about everyone else's situation.
