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Hi Gang! Well, having knowledge of alcholism and knowing more about the disease than my A, and yet still not enough, I saw it coming. As some of you may know, just 1 month ago my Hubby entered in patient rehab. I was excited to attend a weeked alanon retreat the first weekend his was in rehab. Well, he cut his stay short and came home on day four and mother nature caused a natural disater in my home town that lead to the cancel of the retreat. Fast forward...........I've been keeping my head above water and being truely blessed. Been very greatful for my blessings. Not expecting anything from my A, only hopeful that the lesson was learned and the desire was still strong. Well, with my Alcholism xray vision, I slowly started to see things spiral out of control yet again. He slacked off on his meetings and put up a wall around hisself. Then today, he called me at work to tell me that he is going to another in patient rehab, just a christian one this time. I should be rejoyced, right? Well, I am sort of. But I am more selfish right now than anything. GET IT RIGHT WHY DON"T HE!!!!!! Because it is a diease, right? Well, he just better do what it takes to get right with GOD and get right with HIMSELF. Because his time is running to get right with me. He doesn't have many more chances. It seems like all of my clocks are ticking...biological clock, marriage clock, timeclock..........tick tick tick tick..........yes, it's a lifetime of work for both he and I but man..........can someone just stop the clocks!!!! It's too much pressure for me. ODAT......I can only deal with 2 mintues at a time right now.
I must say AMEN to the "I can only deal with 2 mintues at a time right now." I am right there with you... I can't imagine what you are going thru, but I am pleased for you that "HE" Desided to give it another go... At least it is a possitive step instead of going back to the way was before his last treatment...
I could only pray that my Abrother would find such a strength, to do something about it...I know it is not our controll, because if it was, we would have handled it...It does suck that we some how gravitate tords the "A's" in our world, but i know with my brother and my Afather, they are/were very good hearted people, they just got a disease that they chose not to fight... I wish you luck in your next journey, and that your "CLOCK" stops ticking long enough for you to find yourself as too were you need to be...
Sorry you missed the retreat, but as you know somethings are out of our control, and that is a lesson I am still stuck on... If I ever get off step 1... it would be a miricle...lol...You are getting there girl... Hang in and Hang on... You Got This... One Day At A Time :) Keep it Simple, set your boundry's and get to some meetings... For YOU DESIRVE IT :)
Anyone would be annoyed. Dealing with an active alcoholic is a really hard task. Detaching under pressure is the hardest thing to do but it is really the only thing to do. You don't have to over react. Of course as a codependent all I knew how to do was to over react. You can be cool and calm and put your feelings here and among a trusted group.
