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Hello MIP Family... Just wanted to wish you each and everyone a very Blessed Easter...
I am beginning to get my wind back, it is a slow moving train, but at least it is going forward instead of backwords which I will take for now...Had a great dinner with my mom and sister, & niece.. .I think the best thing about it was not looking across the table at Abrother... Don't know if I told ya's or not, but he had Court last week, and he had to serve (2) weekends in Jail, and luckily...lol...This was the one... Soooo I hooked up with HP this morning right out of the gate, said my prayers, and then did not have to deal with him AT ALL... It is sad, but we all sat around the table and laughed, and joked, and we could accually relax... It was really nice, My neice got a new puppy, so my boy and my momma, and my sis all took him for a walk around the nieghbor hood so we could just enjoy the beauty of the day, it was really great and I am sooo Glad, it turned out the way it did...
Came home, went to MILaws house for a bit, and she always makes me smile, she is a one of a kind, and they sure broke the mold when it came to her... I love her to death. :) got back to the house and was greeted by my (2) beautiful Grandkids, full of piss n Vinigar, and bounce'n off the walls with chocolate overdrive...lol... I know how lucky I am and I do try not to take it for granted...Some days I have a bad start and a bad ending, but it is days like today, when I can SEE with my own eyes, all the blessing I have...
This is my first Easter that I didn't get to see Abrothers kids so that was the toughest, but hopefully they are enjoying their trip out of town, and I hope that they got to have some fun while away... I pray for their safe return home...
I also want to thank you all for helping me over this most resent hurdle.. I know it is not over, and I am sure I will be on here, just post'n my butt off, here in the next couple weeks, but just for today, I want to bathe in the beauty of One Wonderful Day... One I have needed all week...
Also, Went to my F2F Friday, and I must say it was a blessing to get there... I have a dear F2F Friend in Alanon, that so kindly volunteered me to "Open" the meeting...lol...I though I wanted to choke her, but upon talking she said that, I looked like I NEEDED TOO the most.... And well... She was right...I opened with "Detachment" and what was goin on in my life, and I don't know how but everytime I speak and she goes after me, she ALWAYS finds a way to reach inside my head, and makes me see the light, She has been in the program for 20 years now, and goes now for everyone else as much as her self... She reminds me how some people are so Giving of there selves it amazes me... I do try, however I think I have not been here long enough to let the HP lead me, as she does... Mine is more of a ramble...lol... But she always seems to bring me back and reach in and rearrange my heart and mind... I am so grateful for this "Al-anon" family... All of you are such a blessing in my life, and I honestly before the program I thought... "I could do this", but in my heart I knew I needed help...
I think that is the hardest step for me is finding a sponser, for one, I don't want to feel like I am putting anyone out.. I don't like to bother them with my problems because I know everyone has their own burdens to bare...I know I will get there, when I am a little more comfortable.. That is why these boards help me so much, because if you want to, you can comment and if ya don't, well I didn't put anyone out... I know that may not make sence to some but for some reason it does to me... I think growing up in an "A" home.. I have learned that if you want something done you do it yourself, which doesn't really save much room for someone else... But that is a 35 years habit, I am not sure I can break, just yet... I am trying, but I am hoping that I can and will get there, One Day At A Time... Thanks to ALL of you.. In Recovery... In Your ESH... I think/ I hope the trip will be alot smoother then if I was to go it alone....
Happy Easter to all... I would love to hear how your Holiday's went... And Any ESH you would like to pass on...
