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Ok... So been doing some thinkin on the whole Abrother thing, sat down with my Mom yesterday and told her what I have been telling all of you..June 1st is D-Day... The Final finally of it all... The day I am No Longer responsible for ANY A's in my family... That is the day that all my responsibilty to my Afathers death will be final, and I can get back to focusing on what I WANT for the rest of my life...
Till then, I plan on working my program to the best of my ability.. :) I am Let'n Go of the fact that the court system will EVER do anything that accually benifits the crime, and I know that he will be right back to court as soon as they can catch him doing something else... He choose to be worthless to his family, children, siblings, and Self.. And as the old saying says... "Frankly My Dear... I don't give a Damn"... If his children move, I guess I will have to suck it up and deal with it... The choice is not mine to make...
I sat here yesterday looking at my mother who is all worked up in a frazzle over all of this, her blood pressure is thru the roof (only when she has to deal with him), and she is pushing 60, and frankly, I love my mother with every piece of my being, But I can tell ya I have no desire to enable my son the way she has my Abrother... I wanted him in jail for here also, only because she lives next to the local Fire dept. and everytime it sounds she looses years, wondering and worring if it is him and if this is Finally the call...I don't want to any longer be that person... I was close for a while... but I'm get'n better...
I just want all the ~Newbies~ to know, that this program can not stop the "Crap" and "hell" that goes on in our lives, but it has taught me how to quickly return to myself when times are tough... I use to carry anger on for Days, Weeks, and even months... Al-anon, has taught me how to Let Go & Let God... YES I get ticked, and pissed, and frustrated like a always have, but now when I do, I kick in My Slogans, Kick out my Aggrivation, and MOVE ON... That could have only been done with the help of all the wonderful people that I have met on this board and at my Meetings... I am so Grateful for these things... And I am so thankful for ALL of you that have taking the time, Not just to read my posts, but took the time to Respond... I charish them all and revisit them all... Some time I do get angst when I see 68 people read and only 2 responded, but I know that too is Not in my control... I am learning a better path for myself, and my family... YEAH ME...
Aloha Jozie....I'm glad you really didn't mean that only for Newbies!! LOL Since there is no graduation and life does go on, it's better from you to me to have it go on while I go on with program.
I am full of gratitude to you and (((All))) who post here. Reading the posts helps in so many ways, so much ES&H. I always read all the posts and gain so much from them and the responses. I dont always reply as I'm not too confident. I'm sure thats why posts can have 68 readers but only 2 responses.
I love this group it's changed my life, I love the 12 steps and am trying to work them all be it very slowly.
I even love the slogans which at first I found a little odd, but do you know what they really work for me. So how about this for all the 'newbies' and for all the not so new (((Jerry)))
It Works If You Work It, Your Worth It. Keep Coming Back
With Gratitude Carol
-- Edited by Mariner on Friday 27th of March 2009 04:28:32 PM
Thanks for your positive share. I am always uplifted by your messages as I am shown how this program actually does work. Your willingness to share your process is a true gift to us all
Thanks Gal! You hit the nail on the head....when you said, "I am so greatful for these things"! Today I was so greatful that the flood waters didn't enter in my home. Yes they were in my garage and utility room, but not my home. I was in total disbelief about all of it, but SO GREATFUL! And before I came to ALANON, I would have been in a panic all day!
HUGS MA"AM.....I'm looking forward to JUNE 1 for you...take yourself to dinner that day, dress up, buy yourself some flowers, make it an all day celebration! WHOO HOOT!!!
Thank you one and all for responding, I truly do find your words to be comforting, and Very supportive..I still have issues with sharing all of "ME" but sometimes I think I am still in search of.. But alanon and all your support has been a wonderful help... Thanks again to all..
which at first I found a little odd, but do you know what they really work for me. So how about this for all the 'newbies' and for all the not so new (((Jerry)))