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Sometimes when I have time to sit and think, I sometimes go back to the times when My family was a whole and my parents were together, BEFORE my father became an A, I remember all the great Christmas's and all the Great holidays, and now looking back I have come to realize that "THEN" in my mind...It was perfect...Well as perfect as I even knew anyway... Then the bottom dropped out, Dad became not only a drinker but a drugger as well, he picked up what ever habit he could afford at the time, and when this started he was a Supervisor The Biggest factory in our area. He lost all that because of his habits that he chose to gather, just because he had the cash to do it... My mother on the other hand would sit home stayin up most nights waiting for him to come home, and sometimes it would be WEEKS... I realize that my mother is and always will be one of my biggest hero's. She got out when I was around 8 yrs old and she took care of us (3) kids by her self with NO help from anyone... She worked Three jobs, and did what most couldn't or wouldn't for that matter... Of course with her working all the time, it left me the chance to run with the wrong crowds, try some drugs of my own, and of course carry out the family alcoholism. I would drink every day and night, and some how hold a job, and keep my bills paid... I started drinking when i was 12 years old, and I never looked back, I had aged so fast that at the age of 14 I was getting served in bars..(that didn' know my father of course).. It is hard to believe how fast a person grows up when living in an A home... I know for me I had to grow up the day my mother left my father, and i was Ticked at her for YEARS over it, but now being a mother myself, and looking back, I am very grateful for ALL her sacrifies, all her struggles, and all the Love that she had for us to make sure we didn't get taken from her.. I guess I was just having a moment of Thankfullness and I just wanted to share... Thanks for listening... And to all you moms out there that are struggling to know whats next... Go with your gut... If your kids are up routed, they will be grateful as well down the road when they realize how hard it was for you...For me it took me becoming a mother to really understand what she did...And now she is my best friend... I wish you all the best... And anytime you would like to share your ESH... I would be most grateful to recieve...
Thank you for sharing your gratitude and the change in your attitude when reflecting on the past. This program has given me so many gifts and gratitude is one that has changed my attitude from the glass half empty to the lgass half full
I have only heard of the anger of kids when uprouted so this down the road is another look at possibilities. Thanks! Going with our gut as a mom often knows how to, goes hand in hand with coming to a point in time when leaving feels like the right thing to do and you just know.
hugs, ddub
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"Choices are the hinges of destiny." Pythagoras You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
