Welp today I got up to a sick kid, and things were worrisome none the less, he is sick in bed with a fever, which I am praying works its way thru rather quickly...As I pray...This too will pass....
In reading my devotional books this morning I came across one that mentioned our slogans, and what they mean, and it brought me to a new way I thinking I suppose... In the slogan "This to will pass" It said to look at that on both sides, meaning... In times of trouble remember that "This too Will Pass' but it also said that in times of wonderful moments "That This too will pass"... I never really put the two together before, however, once you think of it, it is like a reminder to me to not only embrace all your moments, but embrace your good ones as well for "They too will pass"... I want to go back to being the one with my Glass half full... I use to be that person but I could only be that person, when I "Forgot" about my past...Removed it from ME! But I know I can't keep doing that now!!! For I have opened up that can of Worms per say... 
But now as I try to move thru the reminders and bringing up the things that caused the emotions that I carry, and the reason behind my actions and what not, I realize now that i must some how, some way find a way to get back to having "My glass half full" I need to get back to remembering even tho there is every day drama in our lives when it comes to our "A's" that we must too remember that we have to keep on the up side of things in order to Live our lives to the fullest...
I want that in my life... Al-anon has helped me go back and take a deeper look at who and what I came from, but sometimes I think I am still hiding pieces that would be SOOO Helpful in my recovery, I am just not sure were to dig to get them to the surface! I have been asking my HP for the help to get to the root of some of these feelings, and I know he is there... and I have been working it the best I can... I want that part of me to come out so that I can then keep moving forward in my progress... I don't want to get "Stagnant"...If that makes any sense at all!
I have brought out ALOT of very painful memory's some of which has opened up new thoughts and new emotions and others that have still not been completely thought thru...I just not sure were I need to be on the process of looking inside... I try to stay focused on the "Here & the Now" of it all, but also know that I must go back and sometimes and sort out the things that made become the "Codepentant, The people Pleaser, the procrastiator" I have Never had High self esteem, and frankly everytime I think ok this time I will except the complements, when they come "I Freeze"... People probably think I am the rudest person alive... I don't mean to be...I just don't know how to be anything differant then what I have guarded myself from most of my life...I don't know... That saying "This too will Pass" just reminded me of so many things, and I guess "This too will pass" but sometimes the process is mind boggling!!!!

Thanks for letting me share... Confusion and me are not very good together! :)

One day at a time....
Jozie