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Today I was upbeat and determined to feel good on Valentines day. Read your posts, made a gratitude list and took note of daily reading about opening myself up to the love available to me from people, the Universe, and my Higher Power. Ok in the back of my mind if I'm honest I was hoping for a romantic gesture no matter how small from my Abf. Remind me whats that saying about expectation being a future resentmen? I'd posted a card and gift through his door whilst he was at his meeting, just somthing lighthearted and in the spirit of the day. Then went about my day. Guess what? He just dumped me by text! can you believe it, says it doesnt feel right, and he just wants a platonic relationship right now. Without getting personal thats about the most outrageously contrary statement I've ever heard, I almost want to laugh. Recently I have been praying hard to my HP for guidance, even a sign about what to do, asking for HP's will to be done. I didnt know how to go about my relationship with my Abf now he's back home from rehab. Reworking steps 1- 3 as I know my will makes my life unmanageable. So short of taking up sky writing how much clearer can HP make it Give up Carol ,Let go, detach with love. Start walking the walk instead of just talking the talk. Yes I'm hurt, yes Valentines day couldnt have been more painful but my HP is walking me through it, I'm learning and I'm being given the opportunity to get my life back. For that I'm grateful. I'm a slow learner, thankfully I've got a very patient and loving HP
((((Carol))))) Read your post and I am sorry that this happened to you today. You are on the right track though-praying only for HP's will for you and the knowledge to carry that will out. Sometimes the hardest things for me are to LISTEN to HP (I mean even when I do NOT like the answer He gives me) and just to do nothing, but WAIT. If the way is not clear, the time is not right-just WAIT. Waiting is a God guided action. Today is a day about love.......and you are loved here very much. Your ESH helps all of us and teaches all of us. Keep coming back and take care of u today~Maybe a nice hot bubble bath, warm pj's and some literature......Just relax and no that all you have to do is just get through today......One Day at a time GF!!! You are sooo worth it! trying to keep it simple shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
I have only got through today by leaving the commercialism of today behind. Could not otherwise have got through today. So much hype and if one is not in amongst the hype one can be left feeling unlovable and flat.
NO NO NO, I am lovable and so are you, we just need to look for that unquestionable love, the love that holds us close and is always there no matter what.
Everyday is VALENTINE'S DAY WITH MY GOD (hp) FOR I KNOW HIS LOVE TO BE THE GENUINE, UNCONDITIONAL ARTICLE FOR ME. And that is where your unconditional love lies too, and I know you know this.
This is the love that asks no questions, and tells no lies. Hold on.
Hugs coming your way my fellow seafarer. We are taking close to the wind and we will ride each crest with God at the tiller. I see you ((((Mariner)))), and I think you have a very precious gift in your sights right now. Hold on with all you have. It is worth all the navigational skills you and I can muster.
Love, Suz
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
