The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I'm finding I have a cascade effect when I get into the "victim" role. Christmas was daunting. I got into self pity, then went into procrastination. Now I have more to do. In order not to be in "victim" I have to be absolutely scrupulous about really adhering to a program. I have to watch closely who I am around, watch closely my interactions and really keep focused on my goals. I had no idea I cascaded into victim before. I thought it just happened.
I with you on this one myself. Fear and procrastination are soul mates!! I watching what I am feeding my head and spirit lately...Soooo addicted to being caught up with people, places and things I cannot control or cure or caused. Being born and raised in the disease and then recreating it after I left the sick family (who said I was ever healthy?) and then finding the program was journey enough and now I'm having thoughts that I the solution to the world's problem, plus the economic melt down, and all the other natural disasters that results from a lack of proper programming.
I pull back and then pull back from even those things that I am responsible for me.
I get caught up on everyone else except me in my head. I just went back to work and found myself babbling away without thinking. I decided that working my program means quit talking so much. It helps when I think or just don't comment.
oh boy, I can so identify, fear and procrastination, I'm doing this with my thesis at the moment though I am emerging, and with this post, feel so much better, thanks guys,
