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Well, today went a little better then yesterday, the phone didn't ring near as much at work and I do enjoy my work but when you have some many distractions that happen ALL day long it can be tough for me seeing as I have a hard enough time consintrating on the NOW... BUT... I got some things done and felt pretty good about it, I have started my 11 year old son on some much needed help around the house and that is going wonderfully... WHO KNEW... I was under the impression that if it didn't get done by me, then it doesn't get done, but... He is saving for a dirt bike That i told him he has to buy with his own money, may sound harsh, but My husband and I bought his 4-wheeler when he was 6, He saved $500. for his first motor cycle when he was 9 and we split the of the half and now, he wants another, It is good for both of us because I have gotten so much more things done that I had been putting off for so long, because I am ALWAYS trying to get EVERYTHING done, and reading my books, and trying to focus on things i really didn't think i could squeaze it all in, but with the help of my son, I now have time to focus on me and not so much on all the little things that usually drive me crazy on a regular basis... I even got all 3 of my bostons bathed tonight, can't say as they were as excited as me on that one, but it was something that needed done a month ago... I guess today I am just happy to be able to take a breathe and be grateful for who I am becoming, and were I am pointing my life at this point in my life... I know sounds confusing, but it really is freeing, who knew... I have made it thru another day, unscaved from my past, and I am begining to believe the quote that a RIP friend sent me the other day... I have had to read it about 30 times I think... for it to sink in, but once it did...WOW... what a differance... It was and I Quote: lol: Forgiveness isn't about forgetting what happened, it is giving up all hope for a better past!: Go ahead read it again... It really hits home for me... I have been trying all my life to over come my past, and here, I can't... THANK YOU HP, but I can't... It is who I am... It is what I have become.... and now I make the call of who "I" want to be and my past is just that... So thank you my dear friends for helping me find ME... I've been missing for sometime now, and it is nice to be back....
Love and Hugs...
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Forgiveness- Isn't about forgettingwhat happened,its about Giving Up,All Hope,of a Better Past!
Good for you! Our daughter 12, wanted a Wii in thw worst way but we had already gotten her a Gamecube. We told her that if she bought it with her own money we'd buy the nunchuck (something like that) and a game. She saved up her gift money and earned money pet sitting! It took her 6 months but it's her proudest possesion!
That is a good saying too by the way. We had topic night yesterday at Alanon and it was about forgiveness. I can't wait to share it!
Seems like you are not missing out but finding out about yourself. I have heard that quote before. I have always struggled with forgiveness. I will keep trying.
