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My daughter just came to me to talk cuz she couldn't sleep because all of this court stuff was bothering her. It felt good that she came to me on her own and I assured her (as I always have before) that I will always love her no matter how things turn out.
She said that she wants me to be proud of her and I told her I am, I love her for who she is. I told her I am also proud of her for coming to me on her own. I know that was a big step for her since she has been so emotional, rightfully.
It felt so good that she opened up to me about this. She was afraid that I would be upset. I am starting to accept that whatever is decided in court we will be okay even though it is hard. I know she cares about me and she knows I care about her.
By talking to her, I know she feels a huge weight on her shoulders for trying to make the right decision and said she's not sure what to really decide. She does know she's not making the decision all on her own, but it will be considered.
Her coming to me on her own was the best gift I could recieve.
I will continue to do my part as a mother and a friend to her. Only hp knows at this time what will happen.
When I was a young child (around 11yo), I went to my mother-who had legal custody of me- and asked her if I could go live with my father. I know this must have been terrible for her to consider, but consider it she did and she let me go. Now as 41 y.o woman, I am forever grateful for her total committment to me back then. It was the greatest gift she gave me, aside from my existance. We had our tough times when I was a young brat. But I'm trying to tell her in any way I can how sorry I am and what good she did for me by putting me above all else back then.
Whatever happens, you will not "lose" your child. She will ultimately be more "yours" because you have put her first at this crucial time.
personally I have to be super careful around boundaries. For me personally the days of me helping others are numbered. I'm really looking at that I helped others at my own expense all my life. I hope your daughter's case works out. Sometimes I think that the only recourse for many active alcholics is to really get to a bottom where there is no way out but for them to recover.
Your Motherly love is beautiful and strong. Your daughter is living and learning, trying to find her way through a difficult time. Your unconditional love is will support her through this whatever the outcome. I've read your recent posts and really felt for you, there's no greater pain than that of rejection, your daughter will always need your love, it is the one constant in her life.when she's older she will recognise and understand all your sacrifices. I will keep you in my prayers tonight. Turn it over to your HP Good luck to you both tomorrow.
(((((((((((((((((Buick))))))))))))))))))), touch my heart and know that I have been there and it was a hard place. Seeing you doing what you are doing, reading your pain, watching your love, I see the wonder of the love you have for your daughter and the growth that she can come to you to talk and that you work through the rejection with an unconditional love that will be your winning strategy.
And it gives me so much hope that although I too have experienced and still experience so much rejection from my own daughter the future is more promising and positive as a continue to let go, take the rejection and let it work with unconditional love to help her through her own agenda.
Motherly love is hard at times, and the pain can seem intolerable, however, I am learning each day that LOVE IS THE ANSWER no matter what the reaction and what is given back...especially when it comes to our children
Well done, keep going, you are an wonderful example of tolerance, forbearing, compassion and LOVE.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
