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I gotta say that even though Christmas was OK, I spent most of the time frustrated with my mother. She was very difficult for me to deal with: I was hurt! The reason I was hurt is because when we were playing a game, she didn't even try to support me in my efforts to play. I can't explain it very well. Actually, she got all excited when my husband had his turn & I felt left out. I often get jealous of my mom & husband's relationship--sometimes she gets too envolved in his life and his business--very disfunctional I think. Anyway, I spent three days away from her thanks to the bad roads & bad weather. Now I am dealing with boundaries & limits again. I am having a hard time getting past the hurt I felt. Now it is almost New Year's & I hope that the new year is better-- one day at a time! Unfortunately, I can't get to the computer too often so I held in all this for almost a week. I gotta move on & get over it. Everyone have a happy new year! Maybe next year I will be more clear & less confused!
I always felt left out around the ex A and his family. They were not exactly welcoming although his mother claimed she did all she could! I'm not even going to go into it. I don't know that having expectaitons of an alcoholic family is reasonable. If I am around dysfunctional people I have had to revise my expectations.
Holidays are a pretty stressful time I can't wait for this one to be over and get on with my life. Everythng is on hold over the holidays. I am making the best of it but its really hard going.
