The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have had a really tough week with the roommates I have. I am certain one of them is now doing crack cocaine. He has become highly aggressive with me. That was one of the hallmarks of my ex A the aggressiveness. There were signs of that on Thanksgiving and I was not perceptive enough to take care of it.
The good thing about this time if there is any is that I can see how everyone around him enables that. To some extent I have also permitted him to run his little game on me. Now I am having to look at that I need to go to a plan c and start really actively getting to a place of looking for somewhere else as well as saving money. The issue is that I have to ask for help and network as much as I can to get help.
I now have to go into a more active self preservation mode and stop being so passive. I have had to ask for help and reach out and say I am needing assistance which is always so hard for me to do.
So there are good things about this time and bad things as well. Your prayers are appreciated.
I hope you have a Merry Christmas in spite of.... Maresie. Tough situation living with additions as you well know. Here is where your program has value and I can see that you are walking toward growth rather than falling back into illness. You're courage is showing and we'll get thru this as family.
I hear you Maresie, I am also struggling with room mate issues but not to the extent that you are, it sounds. You are in my prayers. My best thoughts are with you. Somehow this is going to motivate or "move" you. Something will give way, something will open up and something will become clear- a path. Your HP may be working at creating the fire under your butt! Hugs, J.
