The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I'm thinking how grateful I am to be sitting here in puffy socks, Mickey Mouse ears, being my own wierd self. I am truly happy.
3 years ago on a Saturday night in December I was caring for a sick dog, wondering if my AH was dead, alive, gonna come home or not, if he would just pass out or rant and rave for hours on end. Trying to find a way to pay my medical bills, save the house from foreclosure, eat ... I am sure I alternated between crying and trying to read posts here that made me angry because I lost my sight and could not read them. I am sure I prayed, pleaded, demanded with my HP. It hurts and makes me a little ashamed that I was that person.
I am grateful right now of the path I am on, it may not always be a pretty one. But when I see the roses I stop to smell them, and give thanks for them. Mickey Mouse ears too
Life can really change, it may seem like the end of the world ... it's not, it's a new world.
I was once told in early recovery that one of the ways to change while trouble seemed to block me was to "go thru it". That is what it seems you have done. You've gone thru it and are coming out much better than you could have ever imagined. You have taken the suggestions and followed thru. You are doing the work and coming back for more and to share your new experiences, strengths and hopes with others who desire the same thing.
It is the winners in this program of recovery who were willing to share their ESH with me who saved my life. Nothing but gratitude from me as a consequence. There aren't enough hours on the counselors sofa or in front of a priest or money to pay for what I have been given freely.
LOL Deb that is not an ignorant question but a very good one. I have stickers i have placed on my keyboard, big white letters on black which I see better than the other way around, they also have braille .... Now I give credit to anyone who can figure them out all the dots feel the same to my numb little digits. And yes there re programs for talking instead of typing.
... thank you for all the wonderful stories and inspirational shares thru the years..... your es&h has been such a godsend and your hope and faith in this program is immeasureable. your such a present.
much love to you and family and... to mickeymouseears.
present. 
your so worth it!