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I want to give thanks today for the wonderful support and all the encouragement that I have received from this truly amazing and loving family. NEVER have I been embraced and encouraged and loved in the way this family has demonstrated to me that love can be tasted and experienced, given and shared.
It is because of the truly wonderful members of this family that I am painfully managing to make it, day by day, step by step, breathe by breathe along that treacherously arduous path to recovery after so many years of devastation in my life.
Layer by layer, I feel the years of guilt, of conditioning, of manipulation are being stripped away, and it is all happening with love and gentleness and the most amazing grace from this family.
Slowly I feel that I am finding me, and it is no longer scary, no longer traumatic, no longer the screaming heartbreaking emptiness that I feel that I have been living with being wrenched from me in my solitary confinement cell.
I have been set free, to feel my wings and smell the perfume of the flowers and gaze on a landscape of emense beauty and awe, and dip my toes into the cool crystal blue lagoon and rest under palm trees as they gently rock me in my cusioned hammock whilst I wonder at the whiteness of the sand and hear the music of that lagoon lap the shore.
Thank you all for the support, the love, the belief that you have in me to make it through my 'dark night of the soul...' toward a brighter, healthier and more fulfilling future.
Sending you all my love and prayers that my experiences and accomplishments might encourage others in their own 'dark nights...', for if that is the case I am well pleased and my distress will have turned into delight.
Continuing to walk in the light and taking ONE DAY AT A TIME, with no expectation other than to take each moment as it presents itself to me. I live right now for that moment, in that moment and taste and see that it is good - just one breathe at a time and find myself smiling and giving thanks, JUST FOR TODAY.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
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